Rudely Awakened – Chapters 6-10

Ch.6 – Dealing & Stripping

Suddenly I heard voices coming from the living room. I recognized Brian and Dan’s voice so I can tell na parang magkakasabay sila dumating. I couldn’t tell what they were saying pero sobrang ingay nila at first and then biglang parang nagbubulungan for a couple of seconds, followed by friendly banter and cheers. I began to panic ng konti when I realized na baka may kasama si Dan pumasok sa room, but as soon as I was about to rise from my seat to do something, bumukas na yung door and Dan showed up all by himself while smiling very proudly.

“Seryoso ka huh!?” Sabi nya agad while closing the door and turning on the AC. He sounded surprised but for sure Eric and the other visitor guy already told him na nandun ako sa room nya. I can only assume na alam na rin nila Christian na there’s a girl waiting in Dan’s room.

“Yup…you told me to come diba? Well here I am…” sabi ko sa kanya while smiling. “Ok lang ba na nakita nila ako?”

“Ok lang…hindi ka naman nila kilala eh…” pa-assure nya ulit. “Pero bakit ka pa rin pumasok? Sabi ko diba dun nalang tayo sa hotel mo? Bakit pumasok ka pa din dito?…” Parang nang-iinis nyang tanong.

“Why? Will you be in trouble ba? Ikaw ah…You didn’t tell me na may kasama ka pala dito at dito rin pala nakatira si Brian… then you insist for me to come pa rin …what were you thinking?” answering his question with another question.

“Cool lang mga yan… kay Brian lang sana kita gusto i-yabang kasi trip na trip ka nya…. Pero yang sina Christian, hindi ko alam na plano pala nila pumunta dito. Tinatawagan kita, hindi mo sinasagot e….. Akala ko hindi ka na pupunta…” Paulit nyang pag-eexplain sa akin at alam ko naman na he’s telling the truth after ko mabasa ko yung FB convo nila ni Brian.

“So bakit ka pa din pumunta?” Pangungulit nyang tanong na parang gusto nya akong umamin na I went to his place just to get laid.

“Before anything else…I want my video deleted sa phone mo….” reply ko sa kanya kahit na hindi naman yun talaga ang reason ng pagpunta ko pero determined ako to delete any proof of this mess for peace of mind na din.

“Ayoko nga….akin to haha” mabilis niyang sagot na tumatawa. “Hindi ko naman yan ipagkakalat dont worry. Pero taena sarap lang panoorin kapag nakikita ko si Christian at niyayabangan ako… sarap ipanood sa mokong na yun na sarap na sarap ka sa etits ko haha!…”

“Kaya remembrance ko na to. Sarap mo dito kasi napa-dirty talk kita hehe…” Dagdag pa nya.

“I’ll try to talk dirty a lot more…just delete the video…deal?…” I said teasingly.

“Teka lang pag isipan ko….” Sabi nya as he stood up sabay hagis ng phone nya sa bed malapit sa kinauupuan ko.

“Baka isipin mo ibaback-up ko hehe..” sabi pa nya as he went inside the toilet. Obvious naman na may lockscreen yung phone nya so I didn’t bother to check.

He was in the toilet for a while so I checked my phone and FB muna. I accepted a friend request from Brian which I think he got it from Jeff. I also saw a few messages from Christian and he’s asking me if nakauwi na ako… yadda yadda…. While looking at my phone screen, naririnig ko pa boses nya coming from the living room. I can hear Jeff & Brian’’s voice too, pero I wasn’t sure what they were yelling about, basta they were all cheering and tawanan. Those idiots have no idea na nandun lang ako sa room ni Dan just a few feet away from them.

“Okay sige payag ako i-delete yung video mo….” Sabi ni Dan as he opened the toilet door pero nasa loob pa rin sya ng toilet.

“Basta BJ mo ako…” He said with a smug smile as he emerges from the toilet na parang kakatapos lang mag shower, wearing nothing except his boxers with his cock fully erect na bakat na bakat.

“No way….” sagot ko agad

Hindi ako nag aate arte pero yun talaga yung reflex na sagot agad ng utak ko. I came there prepared and fully expecting to give him one pero ewan ko ba, lagi pa rin akong may hesitation when it’s about get real na. This has been my entire struggle to this ordeal na parang ang dating eh kunwari na aayaw ayaw ako pero bibigay din naman. I appear tuloy na ‘pakipot’ or papilit lang where in fact, it wasn’t a smooth transition for me. I’m a ‘forking’ neophyte just trying to go with the flow. I’ll never ever get credit for pushing my limits talaga.

“Sabi na eh… alam ko kung gaano ka big deal sayo yan….” He said as he slouched to the bed, his back against the bed frame side by side with me while ako naman nakaupo sa sofa chair. “Kaya yan lang ang kundisyon ko…..ultimate bragging rights ko yan na ako makaka-una sa bibig mo” patawa tawa nyang pag kakasabi.

Dan never sounded like he’s trying to intimidate me nor I never felt being forced or blackmailed, nothing like that. The whole exchange felt like a dare or playful payoff in return for deleting the video. He already got me and I’m in his room while his friends are outside. He doesn’t need to extort me.

“Hindi si Christian, hindi mga manliligaw mo, hindi future boyfriend o asawa mo… Hindi si Jeff… Oo alam ko rin na gusto ka nya pormahan hehe…” He continued to talk dirty while naka slouch sya ng konti while hinihimas nya yung matigas na cock nya poking from his boxers. “Hindi sila ang mauuna sa lips mo… gusto ko ako…”

“Errr…” was all I could muster why fully distracted sa cock nya poking from his boxers like I was being hypnotized or something.

But he’s right, he deserves to be the first cock to enter my lips. Well, he already sorts of did but this time he wanted more than that. He talks trash like no other and I can’t help pero madadala na naman sa mga sinasabi nya. Maybe because of the libog, but the way he’s trying to paint this perverted scenario of him being the first to devour my lips while the two guys he mentioned was just outside the room sounded sooo enticing. I thought to myself na there will never be as crazy as this scenario to experience giving head for the very first time.

“Taena J, tigas na tigas ako sayo…ipon na ipon ang tamod ko sayo..” He said as he gropes his cock outside his boxers showing me kung gaano sya katigas.

“Why ipon na ipon?…” I asked teasingly.

“Huling palabas ko pa nung kinantot kita last week hehe…..hinhintay kitang kontakin mo ako kaya hindi ako nagjajakol….taena, ma-pride ka din eh no?….” Prangka nyang sinabi na pabiro ang tono.

I found what he said disheartening only because it has been an extremely trying week. If he only knew about my libog struggles and how frustrated I was waiting for his call. If only one of us let our ego’s down and initiate, no mind games or gaslighting, Dan could’ve been fucking me everyday since then. Madaming nasayang na oras.

Somehow those wasted time helped me realized a lot of things about myself. I’d probably never appreciate how sex can be this mind-blowing if I kept on holding my guard up just to protect my ego and pride. Never will I realize how dirty my mind works…. na gusto ko pala na binabastos ako ng mga lalaki. No matter how highly I think of myself above others in terms of looks, wealth and well-being… or no matter how high I achieve in my career or future success, my (hidden) slutty nature doesn’t care to any of that nonsense. My body only cared about one thing… my pussy and mouth were just holes meant to be fucked by cocks… para magparaos at magpaligaya ng walang pinipiling lalaki.

“Gusto ko iputok lahat ng to sa mukha mo J… taena hindi ako yung tipong rerespetuhin ka… gusto kita ulit paliguan ng tamod….” Mejo gigil na nakatawa nyang pagkakasabi

“Hindi kita pinipilit J at hindi na kita kailangan pilitin pa… alam kong malibog ka… hindi ako magugulat kung ma-addict kang sumubo ng burat pagkatapos mo isubo titi ko hehe…” dagdag pa nya.

“So paano?.. deal?…” habang inaabot nya sa akin yung phone nya na naka unlock. The screen showed all his photo/video files with preview so I can tell which video i should delete.

I saw him slouches in to his bed again. He continued stroking his cock outside of his boxers while naka turn yung head nya to his left and staring at me. I glanced at him all the way down to his boxers… then I closed my eyes and make a funny ‘mukhasim’ face and said: “okay…fine”. I immediately grabbed the phone and deleted the video.

“Ok fine? Napipilitan ka lang ata eh… hindi masarap ang sapilitang blowjob haha…” sagot nya. “Akala ko ba wala ng arte? Ilabas mo libog mo J at wala ng hiya hiya” Dagdag pa nya

“Hindi naman ako napipilitan or nag-iinarte o nahihiya… naiinis lang ako dahil ang swerte swerte mo…” I said nicely while looking at him smiling in disbelief.

“You have no idea how lucky you are…” dagdag ko pa as I stood up and walked towards the end of the bed near the toilet door.

I stood there and sexily waved my hair as I began to unbutton my top. “I just bought these… So, I don’t want your tamod in it …” I told him while staring at him with a teasing smile.

“Dahan dahan lang… landian mo hehe…” utos pa nya while taking his boxers off exposing all his 7-inch monster then gently jacks it off in front of me. Sudden bolts of lust torn through me as my body instantly went on fire.

Back then during my ‘innocent’ years, sobrang disturbed ako by the thought of seeing a guy masturbate in front of me. I found it visually unattractive eh. Even before when I was giving Christian a handjob, there were couple of instances that I don’t really look down while doing it. I just bury my entire face to his neck hoping to get it over soon. May times pa na yung arms ko nangangawit na so he’ll take over and I still don’t even wanna witness what he’s doing.

But there I was that night with a naked guy laying in the bed right in front of me, he jacks off his cock while the object of his libog was fixated at my body. There’s no sense of being uncomfortable. I felt pretty, sexy and hot. His sobrang tigas na cock standing there was more of a proud moment. I did that!… Sobrang hard nya dahil sa akin. Fuck!

“Ganito ba?..” I said provokingly giving him a playful smile. I shut my eyes gently sabay turn ng head ko slightly to the left while biting my lower right lip. Inangat ko yung mga kamay ko slowly caressing my boobs. I was never the teasing exhibitionist type so I just imagined lang how I would like him to touch me and express that visually.

“Tangina..” I heard him babble. I opened my eyes slightly trying to have a glimpse of his reaction. I saw him smiling very proudly and enjoying himself. Emboldened by his reaction, I felt the confidence na ituloy ko pa so I began to unbutton my top seductively, fully determined to shut my brain and just lose myself to lust.

My sluttiness was in full display. I gave him those seductive libog stares sabay shut ng mga eyes ko then turning my head away, alternating between smiling and biting my lips while removing the first two buttons of my blouse. I put my right hand on top of my head, waving and gently grabbing a portion of my hair na may gigil, looking down to my left and biting lower liponce again, habang yung left hand ko slowly unbuttoning the middle button. My black strapless bra began to peek out.

“Tangina ka J…” I heard him again but this time he’s not smiling anymore. He’s got this mean look at his face na halatang gigil na gigil sa akin. Fuck, I loved it… His cock seemed to be getting bigger and bigger every time I took my eyes off and glanced back at it again. Just a hunch but I sensed that he’s getting close to that climax point as I saw him paced the way he touches himself. Shit ka! get ready… Ilalabas ko talaga landi ko…

My eyes traced up from his cock then to his eyes, flirting him with libog stares and smiles. My hands were at the last few buttons of my top and began removing them gently. While doing so, in one smooth motion I swayed my hips sexily while bending down my knees slowly and swayed my hips and knees back up again simultaneous turning my back at him. Being into dancing since I was little really paid off.

“Whoaaa!!!..Tangina sarap mo!…” sigaw nya.

Habang nakatalikod, I turned my head to my right while glancing him back and maintaining that playful smile. I began to slide my blouse gently off my shoulders while keeping my eye contact and concurrently squeezing my bare shoulders up na parang kinikilig. Then I turned myself around to face him before removing my blouse off my arms sabay hagis sa sofa chair.

“Landi mo hayup ka..” hirit pa nya.

“This is what you wanted diba?.. “ malandi kong tanong sa kanya while smiling in disbelief to what I just did.

I brought my hands back to my chest, cupping my boobs seductively while keeping my hips sexily swaying. Pumikit ako and leaned my head to my left side and reacted like I was sarap na sarap as my hands reached to my back to unclasp my bra. I began to lick my upper lip from left to right just when I opened my eyes and gave him another playful smile before tossing my bra somewhere.

“Yeeaahhh ganyan… ilabas mo landi mo sa katawan…. whoooo…tangina mo Christian maglaro ka lang dyan…” hirit habang bumabangon sya at balak akong lapitan. I pushed him back and asked him to remain in bed. I told him na its my turn to please him and he doesn’t have to do anything for me muna. “Just enjoy…” sabi ko pa sa kanya.

He obliged but requested to turn the ceiling lights on as he wanted to see me clearly. Turning the lights on was propably a mistake as I got distracted by the sight of this naked manyakis-looking guy just laying in the bed and waiting to be serviced by me. I couldn’t help but wonder kung gaano sya ka swerte. “Shit J, of all people, sya pa talaga makakauna sa mouth mo…” bulong ko pa sa sarili ko.

I hoped in sa bed and kneeled just between his legs. I haven’t even started yet pero I can see the agony on his face like he’s about to explode anytime soon. His face na lukot lukot and looking uncomfortable as if he’s about to beg me to do something soon was entertaining to watch. Nag jolt pa yung katawan nya ng konti as soon as my hand touched his right leg. “Shit J…tanginaaa” I heard him growl.

As much as I enjoyed torturing him even more, I couldn’t contain myself na din. I slowly reached forward with my right hand and gently wrapped my hand around his cock base. While yung left hand ko naman joined the other, wrapping around another handful of Dan’s cock. “Shit no way” sabi ko pa sa sarili ko. I remember having that silly thought of possible forever jaw and mouth deformation after surviving my first blow.

For a moment all I could do was stare at it… I was completely transfixed not realizing na papalapit na ng papalapit yung face ko sa titi nya. I can feel the hardness in my hands and I swear to God na gusto ko lagi syang matigas. I did this, matigas sya because of me.

I remember receiving gifts and flowers from previous suitors with my friends cheering at kinikilig. I recall feeling so proud na na parang ang ganda ganda ko. I realized how hollow that was in comparison. I never felt so attractive in my entire life till I was holding Dan’s cock fully erect because of me… Funny, how I wish i could take a selfie holding this cock and post it online with a clever hashtag like \#didthismyself \#proudmoments.

“Sarap mo tingnan na may burat malapit sa face mo…” Dan said proudly. “Jakulin mo titi ko J… titigan mo ako….”

Slowly at first, I began to move my right fists up and down, jacking it up and down slowly… watching the movements sabay titig ng malandi kay Dan. I can hear his deep breathing as my hand began to move up and down, pinipiga ko sya as I began to pick up speed sa pag jerk ko sa titi nya

I saw Dan’s right hand trying to reach for my head and pull me even closer papalapit pa sa titi nya, signaling me to start giving him head. I can hear my inside out’s ‘disgust’ screaming “Oh my God!!! Oh my God!!!” in a panic knowing any second from now, this cock na hawak hawak ko will be devouring my undefiled mouth. A momentary ‘pang’ of guilt ran through but not enough to stop the inevitable. Fuck, I came here for this…

I thought about Christian and Jeff who are just outside ng room and have zero clue of what’s about to happen. I thought about my suitors from the past till the present and to the guys na tinutukso sa akin na puro pa-cute lang at wala namang guts dumiskarte. How I wish they can all see me now and who I ended up becoming a slut to and regret na sana you treated and approached me differently.

“I enjoy mo lang J…gusto mo ba ng remembrance ng unang subo mo? Hehe…” biro pa nya na hindi ko napansin hawak hawak na pala nya yung phone ko.

The most logical thing to do was to say no. It’s a scandal waiting to happen especially being reckless and leaving trails of proof of my wrongdoings. I’d prefer to look back at this as a memorable fun experience rather than forever burdening myself with regret. Besides, I just deleted the previous video from Dan so there’s no need to repeat that same mistake again. Right? Right?

You know how people drown? They get in a water that they think they can handle and then a riptide comes and it is too late. Story of my life. I never thought of any danger when Dan suggested about using my phone and having my full ownership plus control to delete after. I grabbed my phone from his hand and entered my lock screen password and gave it back to him right away.

While Dan was checking my phone to launch the camera app, I think nakaopen pa yung last message ni Christian earlier checking if nasa bahay na ba ako or anong ginagawa ko etc. Dan flipped the phone back to show me the message sabay hirit na “Replyan ko ba na busy kang sumusubo? Hehe..”

My heart squeezed to the thought of what he said. How I wish I could let Christian know about this momentous thing I was about to do. I gave him a dirty seductive look yet keeping my eyes locked on his. I slowly opened my lips and moved my mouth over the head of cock. I believe at that point that’s when he started recording me.

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Ch.7 – Hidden Talent

I slowly and gently lowered my mouth sa head ng titi nya. I felt a flash of electricity shoot through me as soon as my lips touched his cock. There’s so many things running through my head, pero shit! bahala na. I just kept my eyes looking at Dan while I continue to lower my lips pababa ng pababa sa titi nya until I felt the head pressed against my throat. I blocked all my inhibitions at kaartehan. Nakafocus lang ako sa reaction ni Dan na titig na titig naman sa akin at nakangisi ng mayabang as he witnessed almost half of his cock slowly disappeared into my mouth.

I paused for a while habang nakasagad sa bibig ko yung titi nya. I smiled my eyes while staring at him then kinindatan ko pa sya. I pressed my eyes shut sabay sisip ng matindi. I slowly pulled my head back up then a loud pop can be heard when it finally came out of my mouth. I giggled like a little kid while keeping my up and down grip sa titi nya, jacking him off again and teasing him after my very first subo.

“Tangina mo!” I heard him groaned out of edge which made me smile even more. He stopped recording me sabay hagis ng phone ko sa side ng bed as he geared his full attention sa akin.

I was never that totally innocent naman talaga about giving blowjobs. Just because I haven’t done it before doesn’t mean na I’m some kind of ignorant nene with zero knowledge how to do it. I don’t need any directions or any walkthroughs and learn the dos and don’ts. Besides, you can’t be totally naive about these things anymore especially now that millions of pornographic videos are accessible right at our fingertips. I was more curious about my own capability and the general feeling while doing it. Will I enjoy or completely grossed out? Will they be satisfied? Those were my questions and not the act itself.

I recall seeing several blowjob scenes earlier that week and dear lord watching those porno sized cocks was a real treat. I noticed pa na most of these scenes were typically the same lang, just showcasing the porn star’s skill set on giving head. How interesting that almost every blowjob scene I saw were catered mostly to male audiences. Why? sobrang rare to see the guy’s reaction and mostly nakafocus lang sa ginagawa ni girl- tendering to horny male viewers who wish to see pretty girls with cocks stuffed in their mouths.

That’s when it hit me – Dan isn’t worried about me doing a mediocre job. He wasn’t expecting a pro to work on his manhood. He only cares about being the first guy to screw my holy mouth. His ego must have been partying after seeing me with his cock so close next to my face while Christian was just outside the room. As long as I kept on feeding that ego, he’ll brag about this blowjob experience for years.

“Do you know na binabalikan ako ni Christian?” I told him while gently stroking his cock while nakatitig sa kanya.

“Last week, he confessed na he still has feelings for me and that he wanted to win me back… We’ve been going out almost everyday…. He does all the sweet surprises, KL trip and that dinner kanina……“ I added.

“Fuck…Talaga? So kayo na ulit?” He asked while smiling proudly

“Nope…but he thinks we are getting back together” I said while I continue stroking his cock

“Taena, pero eto ka ngayon….magpapasarap ng titi ng iba haha.. Walang kaalam alam si mokong.” pagmamayabang pa nya.

It felt like I was able to control him for the very first time. I knew that mentioning Christian’s name and his intention to win me back will definitely boost his already huge ego pa. Kilala ko na sya. He won’t be able to control himself and I anticipated na babastusin nya din ako to empower me as his way para patamaan din si Christian. I wasn’t bothered by his obnoxious comments anymore. Hearing them was like music to my ears. For once, I don’t want him to ever shut up. I wanted him to be nasty and mean. I wanted to feel being insulted and humiliated… mas nakakadagdag sa libog ko.

“Todo effort. Ang laki ng investment nya sayo at ang tagal ka nya inalagaan….pero ako pa makaka-una sa bibig mo” pagmamayabang pa nya. “Dapat pala mag pasalamat pa ako sa kanya… iningatan nya bibig mo para sa titi ko…”

Surely I gave him a wicked smile after that last comment. There’s no filter in him talaga and he’s never fake or pretentious like any other guys na sobrang trying hard to be a jackass. He’s really that reprehensible and that’s his true nature. Yun yung totoo nya. His good sense of humor at galing makisama shields his candor so every word coming out his mouth was treated as pabiro. He can really get away from being rude and offensive.

My god, how right was he na inalagaan nga talaga ako ni Christian back then when we were dating pa. He never insisted on anything sexually above my limits because of fear… fear of losing me. He never dared to ask me for a blow job since he already knew na hindi ako papayag. He never tried to convince me nor lured me into giving him one… tumitiklop lang sya whenever I said no.

He worshiped me too much to the point na okay na lang sya kung saan ako papayag. He never persevered anything beyond my ceiling until we broke up and lost all of his chances. Maybe for some women, they’d be happy to have a man with such utmost patience and respect… but not me. I never paid attention to any of it while we were still dating, pero feeling ko talaga parang may kulang as kanya…

Instead of owning me and luring me into my sexual awakenings, he spoiled my uptight ignorance and put me on a pedestal as any loving boyfriend do. He thought so wrong about me and I won’t blame him for that, I was wrong about myself too. After all the nice things he’s ever done for me and the utmost respect plus the head over heels na pag-aalaga, Somehow it all paved the way to discover myself and what I really wanted all along… just a complete opposite of what I had with him. Truth be told, Dan was right, all Christian did was to groom my body for him.

“Yeah…you should thank him later kapag nagkita kayo…” I said then I gave his cock a very long lick from the bottom pataas.

“Iningatan nya lips ko para sa titi mo…” I said seductively.

I moved my mouth over his raging hard-on and once again I wrapped my so-called “preserved” lips around sa titi nya. I lowered my mouth until reaching my limit. Yung right hand ko nasa base lang ng titi nya while observing his proud reaction. This time sinipsip ko sya while being mindful pa rin not to grind any of my teeth. Then I lifted my head almost all the way up pataas before pushing my tightly-clamped lips pababa ulit sa titi nya.

“Tanginaaa, yeah!” Dan groaned in pleasure as I began to bob my head up and down to his manhood.

There you go folks, I was officially sucking my very first cock. Wala na akong maipagmamalaki sa iba. No more thinking highly about myself above others. Feeling ko dati sobrang angat ang pagkatao ko sa iba and that I have more self-worth and self-respect chu-chu because of my flawed beliefs na giving head is degrading etc. “Anyare J…?” I asked myself habang pinapasarap ng bibig ko yung titi ni Dan.

I tried being maingat considering it was my first so I was doing it slowly and gently almost looked like I was teasing him. Well, I do. I wanted him to remember my mouth forever like having a mental picture of me na subo subo ko slowly yung titi nya whenever he’s with Christian. But Dan saw things differently and he never contemplated about the slow sucking technique na ginagawa ko was part of any tease. Sherlock Dan can read the pupil dilation from my eyes whenever his cock penetrates my lips. Alam nya na nageenjoy din ako sa ginagawa ko.

“Sarap diba? Dami mo pang arte dati… susubo ka rin pala…” pangaasar pa nya.

Pinipilit kong mandiri sa ginagawa ko pero hindi talaga. I was savoring every subo as if everything feels right. I wasn’t teasing him anymore or just making up those libog faces. I was actually turned-on na may subo subong akong cock sa bibig ko.

“Gamitan mo ng dila J…” Dan insists while groaning.

“Shit…” I said while giggling and breathing heavily.

“Relax ka lang… wag mo ako turuan…” I insisted exhibiting I was no longer doing it for Dan and doing this for myself na.

Slowly, I took my tongue and ran it down to the entire length. I danced my tongue around the head while making sure na he can see my tongue na taas baba dumidila sa titi nya. I just kept on licking and licking and then ni-lock ko yung bibig ko around the head sabay sipsip ulit ng madiin. I sucked it so hard my cheeks sucked in. Then I let up and used my tongue to encircle his head sabay teasing his slit with the tip of my tongue. I was getting into a rhythm, suck hard then tease, paulit lit. This is way easier than I thought.

Napapansin ko na na napapaangat na din yung hips ni dan sa ginagawa ko. The more he moved and moaned, the hotter I got and the more libog I felt. Never before had I experience such acceleration and excitement… just way beyond anything I had ever felt. Sobrang weird na ako na nga yung nag papaligaya sa kanya pero I was the one feeling on fire at libog sa libog.

I finally let go of his cock away from my lips pero hawak hawak ko pa din sya while breathing heavily at titig na titig sa malaking titi nya. I was hearing imaginary glass breaks in my head (ala HIMYM) perceiving another pandora’s box opened after tasting my very first cock. I’ve come to realize that right there in my hand was my weakness… a cock na sobrang tigas because of me. I began to panic about sa libog na nararamdaman ko. This is way beyond normal and I felt so fragile. I worry that every cock I lay my eyes on, I’m going to want to suck.

“Anong gusto mong gawin ko Dan…?” Malandi kong tanong. My chest was heaving dahil sa lalim ng paghinga ko while I began to slowly move my grip to his cock up and down again.

“Chupain mo ako J…. i-kantot mo bibig mo sa titi ko tangina ka….” Dan said almost groaned in desperation. I smiled teasingly, habang nilalapit ko ulit yung lips ko sa titi nya.

I moaned playfully sabay titig ulit sa mga galit na galit nyang mata. I moved my face forward, my lips are pressing softly against sa ulo ng titi nya then I slowly pushed forward, sliding down my lips while moaning sabay sipsip. My mouth felt wet and warm while yung lips ko were contorted in a way that it has never been before… making a nakakalibog na ‘O’ shape around his huge cock.

I ferociously started to pump my mouth faster, up and down sa titi nya until nawawalan na ako ng hininga. Then I let my tongue teasingly dance over and around the sensitive head sabay slide ng lips ko down a little more, mas malalim, till I couldn’t push anymore. I looked up and stared at him as I sucked hard and slowly pumped my fist up and down sa lower part ng titi nya, simultaneously sucking and jacking him off.

I must be doing it right as I saw his head fall back na parang he’s savoring sa sarap ng pagsubo ko sa kanya. I would’ve smile kung hindi lang punong puno ng titi nya yung bibig ko. I was very proud of myself as I continued bobbing my mouth up and down like a freaking pro. Shit! I wonder where this talent came from…

“Tangina bakit ang galing mo… puta ka!” I heard him groaned in pleasure habang nakatingala. I redoubled my effort and I began jacking him off harder and faster habang taas baba yung ulo ko sa titi nya until naramdaman ko nalang na napapagod na yung kamay ko.

I released my grip on his cock and my mouth alone took over. Lips ko nalang ngayon ang nagpapasarap sa titi nya. I glanced up and saw him staring at me again. I bet he doesn’t want to miss this gratifying moment, the glorious view of this chic that everyone was chasing after… milking his cock with her mouth alone.

I paused for a moment while his cock still buried inside my mouth. I began sucking so tight to the point that I can feel some veins around my neck and forehead were distinguishable through my skin. My horny eyes were locked into his, almost shouting in sweeping declaration what my lips were really meant for.

My performance was way beyond unlocking a hidden natural talent. There’s a strong feeling of devotion sa ginagawa ko like it was my ‘destiny’ to be doing this. In any of my interests in life… designing, dancing, playing drums, photography etc.. it took time before I considered myself good “enough” to any of these skills. Narealize ko na ginagawa ko sila because they were cool to do… pero there wasn’t any burning desire to be really good at it. Maybe because I was trying to be good at them regardless if I have the natural ability or not. As funny and weird as it sounds pero habang sinusubo ko at pinapasarap yung titi ni dan, I felt like a natural… na parang ang galing galing ko without putting much effort or practice. Is sucking cocks really a natural passion of mine?

While Dan was enjoying the ‘work’ I was doing, we suddenly heard a soft knock coming from the door (Here we go!). Nakasubo pa rin yung titi ni Dan sa mouth ko when I glanced at the door area then shifted my eyes back to Dan and gave him a confused look like I was asking him what to do.

“Lalabas din ako pre mamaya… sandali lang!” sigaw ni Dan na parang naiinis while I let go of his cock naman pero naka luhod pa rin ako in between his legs.

“Pre yung extra controller na isa baka nandyan sayo…” sabi nung guy na nasa likod ng door which I recognized it was Brian.

Pailing-iling lang si Dan na parang naba-badtrip as he got up and went to the dark color cabinet malapit sa dulo ng Bed. He never bothered covering himself up as he grabbed something inside the cabinet and then head towards the door completely naked. I saw him hid behind the door and opened it slightly while I moved myself naman close to the headboard to avoid being seen. I didn’t see their exchanges but I heard Brian asking “Sino kasama mo?” followed by a few discreet innuendos until Dan pushed the door shut and walked back towards me.

Dan and I didn’t say a word at each other. I gave him a look like I was asking if there’s anything I should be worried about and he just shrug his head like everything’s fine. He slowly walked towards me while yung titi nya tigas na tigas pa din. Akala ko hihiga sya ulit sa bed pero tinanggal nya yung mga power cable ng laptop nya and pushed the table away. Dan just stood there next to the bed and gesturing me to continue. Without hesitation, I quickly grabbed his cock and lowered my mouth to suck him off again pero mejo uncomfortable yung pagkaka bend ko kasi I was sitting on the bed while sya naman nakatayo sa floor.

“Tumuwad ka J!” Dan suggested.

Before adjusting myself, I reached to my bag na nasa floor in between the bed and the sofa chair and took my hair tie. I ponytailed my hair as I moved on a crouched position right in front of him. I supported myself naman with my left hand on his hips while yung right hand ko was gripping on his cock. I wasn’t gifted sa height so yung face ko was perfectly in level with his crotch. I was about to suck his cock when I heard him speak again.

“Wag mo ako hawakan J…. bibig mo lang gusto ko, taas mo pa pwet mo…” Utos pa nya

Sunud sunuran naman ako sa kanya. I removed both of my hands away from him as I raise my ass up pa lalo sa pagkakatuwad ko. I struggled to find my balance so I placed both of my hands and palm the bed para suportahan yung katawan ko. Dan then moved his angry cock closer to my face and as soon as it swayed around my lips, parang automatic na agad sa akin na sumubo. My body stayed still while yung ulo at bibig ko lang yung atras abante na nagpapasarap sa titi nya.

Suddenly nag flashback lahat yung mga guys na binasted ko over the years including those guys who I didn’t entertain because of their looks, age, weight, job at pagiging chicboy at bastos. Yep, I was kinda judgemental din pero not to the point naman na I’m telling people off. I just kept all those remarks to myself lang. But still, people around me tingin pa rin nila na mataas ang standards ko. I wonder about their reactions if they see me right there habang nagpaparaos ng burat in the most demeaning fashion… down on all fours like a bitch.

I wonder if those guys ever thought of me in that position and wish that I was the one crouching in front of them at sumusubo ng cocks nila. If they do, I bet they can only fantasize about it as they thought I’m too prim and proper para pumayag sa kalibugan nila.

Honestly, they were right naman. Just a few weeks prior, I would’ve never imagined myself giving head, let alone letting a cock anywhere near my face. But there I am, bent down on my hands and knees like I was a natural at this position, servicing a guy only with my mouth at nagpasarap ng titi ng lalaki. Truth be told, I could live my whole life just like this.

My body began taking over my actions. Again, I wasn’t on the receiving end of the physical pleasure pero parang ako yung libog na libog sa aming dalawa. I couldn’t help myself anymore as I pushed myself palayo sa kanya then humiga ako sabay tanggal ng jeans ko. I went back to the same tuwad position I was before only this time I was only wearing my very soaked bikini type underwear.

That transition took probably less than 20 seconds pero parang namimiss ko agad yung titi nya. I swear talaga na feeling ko my mouth and lips weren’t the same as before na parang I got used to having a cock stuffed inside my disfigured mouth. I went right back it and began sucking on his cock and I never felt sooooo complete. I wasn’t feeling any ngawit kahit nakatuwad ako or experiencing discomfort around my neck. It all felt natural like I was born and sculptured to be in a ‘tuwad’ position while my head and neck area were built to bounce for a purpose.

My body started behaving on its own as my hand reached out inside my panties and play with my clit. My libog reached new heights that I couldn’t help but to pleasure myself habang nagpapasarap ng lalaki. Lust blazed through my body as I started moaning habang sinisipsip ko yung titi nya. My face changed from being seductive to simangot faces like I was woman in need habang tuloy tuloy pa rin ako sa pagpapasarap ko sa kanya.

Apparently, Dan wasn’t satisfied pa sa ginagawa kong pagpapaka pokpok sa kanya. He took his cock away from my mouth and his left hand grabbed my hair and yank my ponytail para mapatingin ako sa kanya.

“Labas mo dila mo J…” utos nya na parang gigil na gigil sa akin

I wasn’t sure if it is my submissive nature or just being on fire sa libog na nararamdaman ko pero parang hindi ako makatanggi sa mga gusto nyang mangyari. I conceded and stuck my tongue out while nakatitig sa kanya.

“Tangina ka… ano kita J?” Tanong nya ng gigil na gigil as he slaps his cock sa dila ko while grabbing my ponytail. “Sagutin mo ako tangina ka….”

I was too consumed with libog to the point that I surrendered to his perversion. Wala na akong maipagmamalaki sa sarili ko and all that’s left was to accept who I really am and admit who my body and my mouth belongs to…

“Pokpok moko Dan…” I said softly as I started sucking his cock again with my eyes shut in defeat.

“Ha? Lakasan mo J… pakantot ba lips mo?…” utos pa nya, trying to make me admit that my lips were only meant for fucking and nothing else.

Hindi ko sya sinagot as I thought he was just trying to talk dirty. Tuloy tuloy lang pagsubo ko, moaning like a slut while his cock buried inside my mouth. My fingers were feasting on my pussy and I was about to reach my climax until I saw him slowly pulling his hips away from me. My cock-hungry reflex couldn’t let go na parang hinahabol ko pa sa bibig ko yung cock nya until it popped right out of my mouth.

“Sagutin mo ako J…sarap ba? Pakantot ba yang bibig mo tangina ka!!!…” he said ng pagalit.

“Oh my god… shit yes!… pakantot lips ko talaga…please…” I said as I grab his hips pulling him closer and started sucking his cock in desperation.

Dan grabbed my head then pivots it to my right na parang subo subo ko yung titi nya sideways. He held my head still and steady until I felt him pumping his hips sa bibig ko. He wasn’t thrusting directly sa throat ko, rather his cock was aiming my side cheeks slowly gently fucking my mouth with those shallow pumps na ginagawa nya. I stared at him sa mga gilid ng mga mata ko while witnessing the way his cock pokes in and out of my left cheek.

“Hindi ka ba sumusubo ng burat ha J?…. Tangina ka…nasaan na prinsipyo mo? Hindi uubra kaartehan mo sa akin…” He said sarcastically as he continue to fuck my mouth while making fun of me….“Ano ka ngayon at pinapakantot mo na lips mo ha?….”

It was then that reality suddenly dawned on me, the realization of the promise that I made for myself were all gone. All my principles and beliefs were all set aside and neglected. I wasn’t being fair anymore to myself and to all those people na mataas ang tingin sa akin. In a single week, I saw myself transformed from a traditional prim and proper chic na sobrang taas ng tingin sa sarili turned into a cock-hungry whore na nagpapaka-baba at nagpapaka-puta sa kagaya lang ni Dan. All these realizations flashed through my mind while thinking I shouldn’t be doing this… pero pucha! I’ve never felt this kind of closure about myself. No more denials… malibog talaga ako.

“Ewan ko din…ikaw kasi eh” I said after he let go of my head. “I don’t know what you did to me, pero shit talaga! Dan gusto ko to…”

“Gusto mo alin? Linawin mo tangina ka…” pangungulit pa ni Dan

“This!…gusto ko to!” proclaim ko as I lapped on his cock once again while staring at him. “Daaaann….what did you do to me?? bakit gusto ko to? shit talaga!”

“Shocks Christian sorry talaga…. shit sorry talaga…” sabi ko pa like having some sort of breakdown, pouring all my contained emotions out.

“Haha sorry? Bakit sorry?….” patawa tawang tanong ni Dan.

“Basta….Naalala ko lang efforts nya sa akin for the past few days…” pa-arte ko pang sagot while my eyes were shut and smiling in disbelief.

“Kung alam nya lang what I’m doing right now…. kung alam nya lang na ginagawa ko to…” I said before showing his cock deep inside my mouth like a true slut.

“Taena nya, wala syang kaalalam na pokpok na kitang malibog ka…. Sinusuyo suyo ka nya e tangina gingawa lang kitang parausan…” gigil na gigil na pagkakasabi ni Dan.

He grabbed my head again and hold it still. Same position pa rin ako with my hands and knees sideways on to the bed facing him na nakatayo sa floor next to the sofa chair. He began moving his hips in forwarding and backward motion pero this time his cock was directly aiming my throat na. He’s not forcing his cock all the way in naman, his movements are smooth and in rhythm, not hard but not too gentle, not too fast but not too slow. He just wants to show na he’s in control pero not to point na masasaktan na nya ako.

All week long, all I wanted to do was to get back at Dan for ghosting me but I have no idea how. I couldn’t do anything and have nothing to get myself even, as in wala talaga unless we get a chance to see each other in person.

That opportunity came and I thought I had a solid plan by looking all hot and desirable, sabay sya naman ang hindi ko papansinin. I know it was petty payback but torturing him and giving him his own dose of medicine was all I can do to settle the score. Pero wala din pala. In the end, all the groundwork and effort ko to impress him were all bound for his pleasure lang din pala.

The hour long make-up and prep that I did were all meant pala for me to look pretty habang nagpapasarap ng ng titi nya. I recall pa nga na nahihirapan pa ako mag decide what type shade of lipstick to wear. Little that I know I was trying to decide na pala what color of my lips is gonna be when finally having a cock in my mouth for the very first time.

Strangely, I bought that pricey pink buttoned top that I was wearing that night with full intention of dashing him while giving him a tormenting cold shoulder. I bought it with zero premonition that it will be just an accessory to look captivating while performing a striptease lol. That clothing served its purpose and now worthlessly laid somewhere on the floor. I recall using my Dad’s credit card to buy that and had blast of begging him to consider it as a gift for me. Unbeknownst to him that he just funded my expensive strip show.

“Sana makita ni Christian kung paano lang kita babuyin… hayup ka!” Narinig kong hirit ni Dan.

That’s when he stopped being gentle. Dumiin na yung pagkakahawak nya sa ulo ko sabay banat sa bibig ko bigla. His cock pushed all the way sa throat ko until I felt myself gagging and choking. I tried my best to back away pero pinigilan nya ako. Instead, he forced his cock into my throat a couple more inches before I was able to resist, enough to impress him how deep my mouth can accomodate him.

“Taena ka.… Marami kang pinaasa diba? Para sa kanila to…” I heard him say habang nakabaon na halos sa lalamunan ko yung titi nya.

He began fucking my mouth deep and hard. I did my best to relax and force my body to accept it habang sya naman e sarap na sarap sya sa pagbanat sa bibig ko. My heart was pounding from the adrenaline rush of having my mouth fucked like I was a nobody. I could barely hold my breath…. Tinanggap ko lang, I just held on for my dear life and focused on giving the blowjob I surrendred myself to.

“Kung nakilala na kita dati at nanligaw din ako sayo…. Taena malamang binasted mo din ako diba Diba ha? diba?” hirit pa nya na parang totoong nangyari yung sinasabi nya.

That last remark sounded odd coming from the guy who was literally fucking my mouth with his huge cock. But he’s right naman talaga, he has no chance at all. He crosses all the check boxes of a guy I’d instantly reject and avoid; married, age gap difference, bastos, mayabang at mukhang tambay. My pickiness says it all as far as my dating history goes after Christian- zero boyfriends. Even those guys that I was attracted to and are gwapo… they too never won me over. I’m enjoying the attention and the chase eh.

Ngayon ramdam na ramdam ko yung consequence ng pagiging maarte ko sa lalaki. Somehow habang kinakantot ni Dan yung bibig ko, I can imagine those guys… the very same guys I avoided or failed to win me over, I can visualize them watching me with their vengeful eyes while cheering on as they witness me getting a much warranted face fuck that a snobby pakipot bitch like me deserves.

Dan continued to fuck my mouth ng mabilis na parang he’s jacking off his cock but instead of using his own hand, he’s using my mouth as his own fist. In my everyday grind, bibig ko ang puhunan. I mean, I use my mouth to sell and win projects, to communicate during site meetings, and convey my katarayans sa mga pasaway na site workers. I won arguments when I speak to show how smart I am and demonstrate who’s in charge.

But there I am no longer in-charge and can no longer speak. My mouth and lips were being used as a cock sleeve at ginagawa lang parausan. I kept saying “oh my god” sa utak ko na parang hindi ako makapaniwala sa ginagawa nya sa akin. I felt so sorry for Christian, who kissed me so gently with love and care for the entire 3 ½ years we’ve been together and yet heto ako ngayon kinakantot lang ni Dan yung bibig ko.

Dan didn’t care about my pleasure. There was no love there. Wala siyang pakialam kung gaano ba sya ka swerte. Aside from sarap, all he cared about is his ego. Feeling proud of himself how he made this chic as his personal fuck toy. The same chick that Brian is drooling over… the same chick that Jeff is going out on a brunch date the next day… the very same chic inalagaan, iniyakan at binabalik balikan ni Christian.

Soon my lungs screamed for air. I tried to pull away, pero pinigilan ako ni Dan. He adjusted and tightened his grip to the point na natanggal na yung ponytail ng hair ko then mas lalo pa nyang kinantot ng madiin yung bibig ko. I struggled to get away pero enjoy na enjoy lang sya. I swear I was just about to blackout when he finally released me. I fell backward, coughing, choking, gasping for breath. I could hear him laughing at me so I shot him with a resentful taray look… but all I could see was his tigas na tigas na titi, glistening and dripping dahil sa laway ko.

He didn’t have to fuck my face. Willing naman ako eh. Dan drives on being in control and he will never be the guy who just lays down at nagpapakasarap lang and enjoys being serviced. Fucking my mouth like that wasn’t for sarap. That was nothing more than flexing his ego and validation that he owns me and can do anything he wants with me.

I saw myself sa closet mirror. My eyes are watery with my lips and chin glistening with saliva. My jaw was throbbing with pain and I was physically and emotionally drained. Dan was definitely out of line, but the sight of his angry cock na sa paningin ko parang lalo pang tumigas, ignored all the trauma I just went through. Nawala na agad pagka inis ko sa nangyari. In fact, hindi naman talaga ako naiinis… more like a mild shock over that assault I just endured.

“Oh… my… God! grabe ka…” was all I could muster while breathing heavily and smiling in disbelief as I still couldn’t believe sa nangyari.

“Haha bakit? Di ba ikaw mismo nagsabi na pakantot lips mo?” He said like he had no remorse as he sat down and slouch like mob boss sa sofa chair. “Malapit na ako J… Tapusin mo na…”

As I stood up to geared myself to kneel in front of him, napatingin ako sa door dahil ngayon ko lang napansin na parang lumalakas at lumilinaw yung mga boses sa living area. I noticed a tiny gap and that the door wasn’t fully shut pala. OMG! He left that in purpose?

My jaw was hanging when I looked at Dan na pilyong nakangiti lang sa akin na parang nagpapaka inosente. I leaned over to check if someone’s at the door but nobody’s there. I wasn’t satisfied pa as I went behind the door and peeked into the living room just to be sure, pero mukhang busy naman silang lahat sa game nila.

I gave Dan a death stare while mouthing the word ‘why’. He was nervously smiling without saying any word. He looked concerned as if I caught him ruining my trust sa kanya. What was he thinking? Does he want us to get caught yet preferred it to look like an accident or unintentional? The answer was yes and it was written all over his smug smile. Am I ready to get caught?

I shook my head in disbelief while smiling and gestured to him to push the chair closer to the bed squeezing the floor lamp in between. I went to peek one last time at the door before walking towards him leaving a door slightly closed but wasn’t fully shut… enough opening if somebody from the outside decided to have a peek.

I stood right in front of Dan, smirking ng malandi while biting my lip. I glanced to my right to check the tiny little opening of the door but couldn’t see much of the outside as it was dark. The thrill of not knowing if somebody was there peeking brought my libog to a whole new level.

Kung kanina naka blocked off sa tenga ko lahat ng ingay nila sa living room, now everything seems to be amplified. Every loud step and walking sounds pound my chest as I began to drop on my knees and geared on all fours once again. I leaned my head and face closer to his cock as I started licking it again up and down. Palinga linga naman si Dan sa door as he couldn’t believe that I played along sa gusto nya.

“Proud ka pa ha…. Sige taena pakita mo sa kanila kung paang ka magpaligaya ng burat….” Hirit pa ni Dan

I smiled playfully before doing exactly what he ordered. I went back to work by sucking him using only mouth for all I was worth. Moaning while giving head. I picked up the pace as my head started moving like a machine, jack hammering my own head sa titi nya. I serviced his cock like it was my professional job to do. Yung hair at boobs ko were jiggling from the energetic way ng pagtaas baba ng head at upper body ko sa titi nya.

I can hear Christian’s voice from the living area, laughing and joking around, walang kaalam alam sa ginagawa ko a few feet away from him. If only he would shut up and blocked all the noises around him and focuses on the sound na nanggagaling sa room ni Dan, the only sound that’s ever going to matter, he would hear those sucking noises that I was doing habang nagpapasarap ng titi ng iba. He would hear my pigil na pigil na ungol not because I was trying to resist from making any sound, but because I have my mouth full of cock and I was loving it every second of it.

“Sarap ba J? Puta may I swear I swear ka pang nalalaman dati….” Dan said between clenched teeth. “Taena… ngayon ka mag swear swear na pakakantot mo sa akin lagi bibig mo….” Dan growled, more of an order than a request.

I didn’t say anything. I paused what I was doing but his cock remained stuffed inside my mouth. I stared at him with my begging puppy eyes then I slowly raised my right hand and gave him a pleading look on my face. There are no words needed to be said as I look like a desperate tramp with a cock in mouth… swearing na habambuhay na magpapasarap sa titi nya.

My right hand was still raised in the air as I continue to suck the life out of him. Tuwang tuwa naman si Dan dahil kung kuha na nya ako. Napahinto lang ako when suddenly we heard footsteps heading towards the corridor. We didn’t know who it was pero we heard the steps slowing down bigla. Nakikiramdam pa ako at first but then I decided to screw it and continue pistoning my head off of Dan’s dick.

I don’t know what came to me pero sinexyhan ko pa yung pagkakatuwad ko sa floor… raising my ass higher while completely ignoring the fact na baka may nanonood na sa amin. Pero shit wala na talaga akong pakialam. Lust has taken over me completely and I have zero fucks kung sino pa yung nasa corridor. My only sole focus was Dan’s manhood na pinapasarap ko.

A few seconds later, we heard a creaky door sound somewhere along the corridor, like it was opened and then shut back in. I didn’t know which door it was and to be honest I didn’t care either, pero mas lalo lang nadagdagan yung libog ko knowing that someone may have seen us already.

“Tangina mo… malapit na ako!” Dan groaned loudly.

Less than a breath later, I suddenly felt his body tense. Glancing up to his alapaap face, I started sucking his cock as my life depended on it. For a moment, akala ko he wanted to cum inside my mouth, which I have mixed feelings for as I wasn’t sure if magugustuhan ko sya… But Dan was true to his word on where he’s actually saving his cum for.

Dan suddenly pushed me back sabay tayo sa harap ko. I was on the floor kneeling right in front of him as I watched him jerking his cock ng manyakis na nakatitig sa akin. I took a glimpse at the door partly hoping that someone was peeking but I still couldn’t see anything. If only one of those guys went near the corridor, they may witness what it seems like a porno scene… me on my knees and almost naked while Dan stood in front of me jacking off his cock.

There’s no doubt that he wanted to cum in my face again and this time around I was more than prepared for it. I no longer find it degrading nor feeling grossed out having it in my face. More than anything else, I wanted him to cover me with his cum. Fuck, I earned it. Pinaghirapan ko sya.

Instead of closing my eyes with a deadpan face looking like kawawa trying to get over with it, I wanted to witness this ‘money shot’ moment. Feeling ko ang landi landi ko when I smiled at him and waved my hair like I was getting ready to be photographed.

“Tangina ang ganda mo…. Tangina kaaaa” I heard him trying to control the volume of his yell. After all the nasty words, the trash talks, pambabastos at pangaasar that I got from him all night, he finally gave me a compliment. A very odd compliment lalo na na he’s about to baboy my face with his tamod.

I gave him a teasing smile habang nakatingin ako sa titi nya sabay balik ng tingin sa mga mata nya. Then I switched my face in to a more seductive look with my mouth slightly open as I geared up to what’s about to come.

“Tanginaaaa!…”

With that loud groan, Dan fired his first jet of cum na sa sobrang fierce he nearly fell to his knees. His cum was so intense, I almost threw my head back when it finally hit my face. Ramdam na ramdam ko yung pagkalinya ng cum nya sa face ko starting from my left cheek, continuing over my left eye, then sa forehead ko, tapos yung iba naman napunta sa hair ko. I didn’t have time to recover as blast after blast of his cum shot all over my face.

Ewan ko ba pero I reacted almost instinctively and I opened my mouth wider pa while smiling in disbelief. Load after load of his tamod pumped into my hair, cheeks, nose, eyes… some if it went inside my mouth ko pa while the rest splattered across my neck then tumulo na sya sa shoulders running all the way chest at boobs ko. Lasang lasa ko yung cum na napunta sa mouth ko. Dan suddenly fell back onto the sofa, nanlalambot pa yung legs nya sa intense ng pag cum nya.

“Tangina! ganda mo tingnan…” I heard him say while hingal na hingal. I was still on the floor when he stood up and gathered his underwear, shorts and shirt. He quickly cleaned himself up and hurried himself to get dressed na parang walang nangyari.

“Laro lang ako sa labas…” paalam pa nya.

“Really!? Ganun ganun lang…” I said habang nakatawa.

“Haha bakit? Nagawa mo na purpose mo eh…” he said ng pabiro. “Pahinga ka na muna jan…” dagdag pa nya

I saw him walked away palabas ng room and just when he’s about to close the door, sabay naman nag open yung door sa corridor (which appears to be another toilet). My heart stopped when I saw Christian come out of that door and his visual instinct went directly towards our way agad. I swear for just a split second our eyes met just before ako nakaiwas. He wasn’t wearing his glasses so maybe he didn’t recognize what he saw. Dan reacted quickly and closed the door right away. I caught them talking and mumbling something pero wala na akong maintindihan. I listened to them making those kantyawan noises followed by a few jeers and cheers. I can only assume they were all talking about me.

I was still in a kneeling/sitting position to the floor when I took a glimpse of myself at the closet mirror. What I saw in the mirror shocked me worse than I thought it would. I felt so nababoy with my face full of cum. Strangely, something about the way I looked really turned me on. Napasandal ako sa side ng bed in a slouch position, face to face with myself in front of the mirror. I was all alone just by myself. I have no more inhibitions at wala na akong dapat pang ikahiya. With complete privacy, I loosened up and just acted the way I always wanted to be.

I began playing with myself right there and then in front of the mirror. I shutted my brain and let my body take over and do whatever it wants… My own body controlled my actions as I began licking those tamod dripping into my lips and scoop some of the cum galing sa face ko sabay dila sa mga fingers ko. shouldn’t be sharing this and I recognized how gross it was but I recall that my own body was doing that for me.

That probably was the most perverted thing na nagawa ko sa sarili ko- watching my cum-covered self sa harap ng mirror, scooping, licking and sucking my fingers as I pleasured myself to my total bliss until I felt my own body erupted. As my mind began to return to reality, I thought about what just happened. There’s no denying it anymore; I’m officially a cocksucker. I didn’t get laid but I felt so fulfilled serving my purpose.

My life has definitely changed, that much I knew.

******

Ch.8(a) – The Girl Next Door

Nakaupo pa rin ako sa floor, with cum dripping sa face ko while half-naked na nakasandal sa bed at nakaharap sa mirror. It took me a while before making any sort of movements. There’s no urgency to do anything… everything felt sooo right at that point. I kept on staring at myself into the mirror while my fucked up brain was trying to absorb what just happened and how I ended up right there leading to that very moment.

My brain & emotions took in the serenity of the quiet and peace. There wasn’t any feeling of guilt or shame sa sarili ko. Imagine, I just broke my paramount rule – yet I don’t have any regrets. None. Wala talaga. Sa totoo lang, I was kind of blaming myself pa nga for being soooo close minded and uptight before.

I reached my phone na nasa bed and I began browsing on Facebook. I saw a few photos posted by my SG friends during our dinner earlier and I couldn’t help but smile in disbelief sa bilis ng pangyayari. Parang kanina lang I was dolled up, looking all pretty and having fun with my friends… but there I was, in a room of a guy who by the way never existed in my life a week ago, sitting there on the floor half-naked with a face full of cum dripping all the way down to my chest.

I began having flashbacks of their earlier teasing of pushing me back together with Christian. They were all rooting for him and why wouldn’t they? They all witnessed his efforts just to surprise me. Like me, almost all of my girl barkadas were hopeless romantics at alam nila how much I love sweet surprises like that so pretty sure na mas kinikilig pa sila kesa sa akin.

I read some of their comments and most of it are mga pahaging hirit pa na “yihii…” and “love is in the air…” which are obviously directed at me and Christian. It’s funny that Christian wasn’t even in the group photos nor he was tagged and yet that didn’t stop them from their subtle teasing at pagbibiro. Most of their hirit naman eh directed towards me since sila naman talaga yung mga ka-close ko.

I don’t know why pero sobrang narcissistic lang to enjoy their teasing comments while my face was still glistening from the porno-like facial I had a moment ago. I glanced at those closet door mirrors in front of me at instead na ma-guilty, I gave myself a devilish smile pa while sarcastically talking to myself in the mirror; “Haha! and this is how you repay Christian for that sweet surprise…?”

Not long after, I decided to clean myself up. I got up and wore my pants before heading straight to the bathroom. Sobrang liwanag ng lights sa bathroom so I can clearly see pa lalo from the lababo mirror how much nababoy talaga yung face ko. I smiled pa and took one last long look sa sarili ko before finally washing my cum filled face. I found a clean looking white towel naka-hang sa wall so ginamit ko sya to dry my face and then later wrapped that towel around my naked upper body before heading back to the room.

I grabbed my pink top and was about to get dressed when I heard an incoming message notification alert sa phone ko. It was Jeff reconfirming our brunch date the next day. I haven’t forgotten about our date naman pero na realize ko lang na maybe it’s better not to go through with it. A part of me wanted to stay there with Dan and spend my last few SG minutes with him.

I texted him back and told him politely about me having second thoughts about our brunch date even suggesting we should cancel it na lang kahit na magmukha na akong petty at paasa nanaman. I was trying to recall why I even agreed to this date in the first place. I know that I acted so impulsive because I find him cute. Jeff seems like a decent guy and I don’t wanna drag him into my quicksand. He truly deserves a lot better.

However, a part of me felt elated by this chaos. I’ve always been straight-edge and deflects a complicated life… I’ve never done anything na ikasisira ko. But somehow carrying this huge secret with me brought spice into my life. Maybe because I began trusting Dan more so I have less paranoia?

I kept on having these vivid thoughts of what if someone found out about this kalokohan ko with Dan. Someone who knows me as prim and proper conservative chic and yet malalaman nila na okay lang pala ako bastusin. Someone who always thought of me as choosy & picky (yes, marami sila) tapos they’ll find out na sa kagaya lang pala ni Dan ako papatol tapos I’m allowing him pa to treat me as his personal slut and parausan. Positive or nega, I was curious about what they’ll think about me. Matuturn-off ba sila? Are they going to bitterly judge me and think that I deserve it? Or will they be crushed and disappointed thinking na sa kagaya lang pala ni Dan ang bagsak ko?

Looking back and assessing what happened, that entire anarchy happened because of being driven primarily by the thrill of cheating. My definition of cheating might be different from others since I was single then and technically I wasn’t doing anything wrong. However, the feeling of excitement and the thrill from doing something unthinkable behind someone’s upright perception about me was the catalyst. Christian, suitors and friends from the past till present, and my family – all of them are victims of my misleading persona. The mental satisfaction of deceiving them all is way beyond the physical sarap from Dan’s kantot. To this day, sex will always be a mental gratification for me than physical pleasure.

I received a reply from Jeff at kinukulit nya talaga ako na matuloy yung brunch date namin. After a few back and forth yadda yadda exchanges, I decided to tell him the truth about my past relationship with Christian and use that as an excuse na lang para hindi kami matuloy. I never intended to snitch on Christian, but I told Jeff that he confessed of still having feelings for me despite currently dating Nat. I stressed out that I never considered getting back together with Christian but it would be hella weird to go out with one of his friends and complicates everyone’s relationship with one another. Lol and yet pumatol ako kay Dan…

Jeff and I kept on chatting for merely 2-3 hours. He was fun to talk to naman and he told me pa na he went home na din kasi nawalan na rin sya ng gana maglaro ng game nila dahil kausap nya ako. After getting more comfortable with him, Jeff finally confessed about his years-long crush on me. He told this story about us meeting each other way before pa and also admitted that he knew about my past with Christian. He chose to be cool lang and pretended na wala syang alam kasi wala naman sinasabi sa kanya si Christian. Feeling pa nya na hindi na rin maalala ni Christian na nagkakilala kami before.

Kwento pa nya na we met each other a couple of times way way back at this volunteer group where Christian and I met (and Nat). He has long hair then and wasn’t confident about girls kaya hanggang tingin lang daw sya sa akin. He remained connected with Nat through the years and they became closer friends after reuniting in SG. After finding out about Christian and Nat, he thought of communicating with me but he decided not to as wasn’t sure if I remembered him.

Well he’s right, I have no memory of meeting him before. There’s so many people in that volunteer group at syempre at that time feeling “nene” pa ako and I wasn’t into boys pa so I hardly remember any of them. I have doubts pa nga about his “secret crush” admission because… well, those confessions are mostly never true and just a conversational piece for flirting.

But then he started telling me about a few things that he knew about my life, like my travels, hardships sa board exams etc… It turns out he’s been stalking my social accounts for years. According to him, he has no idea why he’s doing that but there’s something about me daw that fascinates him and that he’s fine just being a silent fan.

I was in awe sa mga nalaman ko. Of course I find him creepy but I wasn’t totally weirded out by his harmless stalkings. Honestly he impressed me pa nga and came off as a sweet dude… I like him and it’s killing me for being in this predicament with Dan before his confession. Kahit papaano mejo may panghihinayang feeling pa rin lalo na I could’ve given myself fully to a much more deserving guy like him.

But somehow, I doubt that Jeff is that guy. I mean he’s too passive to be that person who can unlock my inner libog. How I wish na he’s more aggressive like Dan. Jeff is one of those goody goody guys who doesn’t do well with rejection and rather settle and wait for the convenient time to make his move to avoid failing miserably.

Regardless, Jeff’s confession was flattering but the timing was terribly off. That night I see him as nothing more than another person to deceive and he doesn’t deserve that. I’d prefer to shut him down na lang agad and spare him but I also recognized that nice guys like him won’t come along that often.

This situation with Dan will be over soon as I don’t expect this kalokohan to go on after this SG visit (Well, I was wrong!). At that time iniisip ko na I can move past this easily at babalik din ako sa old self ko. Everything will go back to normal and when it does, it’s nice to have a guy like Jeff who’s someone na I can see a future with romantically.

“Kamusta pala yung ‘date’ nyo last week ni Dan LOL…?” Out of the blue na message ni Jeff.

My face blushed sa biglaang tanong nya about kay Dan. I think I composed around 5-10 different replies that I kept on deleting over and over until I settled with a single word reply na “why?”

“Wala naman, kausap ko sya kanina bago ako umuwi… Nalaman nya kasi kay Brian yung plans natin tom… tinanong ko sya about you kasi nga ang palabas nya sa tropa na pinopormahan ka nya” paliwanag nya.

“What did he say?…” I asked.

“Sabi nya inaasar nya lang daw si Christian…” reply ni Jeff.

“Type ka nya pero yung mga sinasabi nya hindi flattering eh…. Mejo bastos sya magsalita tungkol sayo eh… pinipigilan ko lang sarili ko..” Pabida pa nya sa akin.

“Like what?…” curious na tanong ko ulit.

“Hehe wala naman. Mejo bastos eh alam mo na. Bitter siguro kasi hindi umubra sayo hehe… Hindi ko lang nagustuhan na ikaw yung nasasabihan nya ng ganun…” sagot nya sa akin

“Anong mga bastos na sinasabi nya… you can tell me. I don’t mind promise…” Pangungulit ko pa sa kanya and implying pa na he can say whatever he wants to say to me regardless kung bastos or offensive pa sya.

“Basta haha R18 eh. Di ka pa pwede dun haha…” nakakainis nyang reply “Wag ka ma-bother, next time na magsalita pa sya ng ganun tungkol sayo… sasabihan ko na talaga sya”

I was shaking my head in disbelief. Here I was dropping him all the hints and giving him the signal na never ko pa ginawa sa iba and yet he still assumes na I wasn’t ready for matured conversation? WTH. I get it… he wanted to be a gentleman for sure, pero nakaka frustrate lang talaga na ako na nga yung gumagawa ng way to break this invisible prude barrier and all he needed to do is to capitalize the opportunity. In my head I was like “I’m giving you the advantage, Enjoy!”

Those bastos words that I was asking from him weren’t coming from him naman… So, he’s only repeating kung ano yung mga kabastusan na sinabi ni Dan tungkol sa akin… pero he couldn’t do it talaga. He couldn’t say or utter those words to me like I’m some kind of madre. Unbelievable!

“Pero tropa ko naman yang si Dan…” Comment pa nya na mas lalong naging topic na namin si Dan. “Naka move-on naman na, may babae nga ngayon na nasa kwarto nya… panibagong victim…”

“Ganun? You saw her?…” I asked while kinakabahan.

“Hehe actually hindi pero pinapasok kanina ng ka-hausmate nya …. Palabas ni Dan pamangkin daw ng asawa nya at makikitulog… ako lang ata ang hindi naniniwala haha!…” Kwento pa nya.

“Maybe relative naman talaga…” Reply ko para hindi sila magduda.

“Well everyone seems to be buying it pero diba kung totoo edi sana pinakilala na sa amin… Ngayon lang sya nag sikreto eh. Baka natatakot na may magsumbong sa asawa nya…” Reply pa nya.

I wanted to keep our topic away from Dan so I kept my replies very vague without confirming or denying anything. I steered away from our conversation and continued giving him those subtle hints like ‘I’m bored’ and ‘I can’t sleep’ act hoping he would start to initiate something per wala talaga. He got me so frustrated na parang na turn-off ako sa kanya bigla. Naisip ko na despite how perfect he is on paper, maybe he’s not the right guy for me. Did Dan ruin me for nice guys?

After a few more exchanges with Jeff, I decided to text Dan about the rumor I heard.

“Hey, you told them na pamangkin ako ng wife mo? Lol.” Message ko kay Dan.

“Haha talaga? Sino may sabi?… Si Jeff?” reply nya.

“Basta…” Maikling sagot ko sa kanya.

“Sabi na eh… Ikaw kausap nya…. Kanina pa sya may ka-text eh” reply pa nya. “Ganun na lang pinalabas ko kasi gusto ka nila makilala…”

“Okay, pero I don’t think na maniniwala sila…” sagot ko sa kanya.

“Haha eh pano? Gusto mo sabihin ko sa kanilang lahat yung totoo?…” reply nya na parang nangaasar. “Sure ako na nilalandi ka ni Jeff ngayon?…”

I ignored nalang his message hoping to steer the topic away from Jeff. Despite his pang aasar, I can sense his annoyance na hindi nya ako maiyabang sa kanila. Alam nya sa sarili nya ung totoo and I sense his frustration from his profound candor towards me.

“Bentang benta ka kasi sa mga tropa ah hehe… wala silang kaalam alam na nasa kwarto lang kita ngayon at ginawa ko lang parausan yang bibig mo haha….” he said as our convo took a turn bigla.

Well, he’s right about that. I began having realizations of going to have to walk this earth and face my friends, parents and suitors knowing that I allow a f*ckin nobody to violate my mouth. I can’t wait to face and smile at them while having those thoughts in mind.

I’m baffled by how much control Dan has over me. To hear (or read) him say that with just a single bastos message instantly switch me back to my libog mode. He doesn’t have to physically touch me to switch the right buttons… I’m a next gen slut! My libog activation is wireless.

“Haha yeah sorry nalang sa kanilang lahat…” reply ko pa while I began touching myself once again. “I have zero regrets Dan… I love the fact na wala silang kaalam alam…”

“Taena oo, wala silang kaalam alam na malibog ka….” reply pa nya sa akin. “Tangina J, wala silang kaalam alam na ginawa ko lang parausan bibig mo kanina lang…”

“Wala silang kaalam alam na pumupunta ka sa bahay ng lalaki para chumupa…” tuloy tuloy nyang mga messages.

“Kita ko sa FB na ang daming nagli-like ng mga pictures ng mga pasyal mo dito sa SG, Taena kung alam lang nila na nagpaka-pokpok ka lang dito. Dapat ang mga pino-post mo eh yung blowjob video mo kanina haha…”

**“**Si Brian proud na proud pa sa mga stolen shots nya sayo… Taena, kung alam nya lang na pinapaliguan ko lang ng tamod yang mukha mo…”

“Binibiro pa ako ni Jeff na baka pokpok daw ang kasama ko ngayon sa kwarto. Haha tama syang gago sya. Pokpok ko lang yung popormahan nya haha…”

His outspoken harsh realities literally filled my phone screen. I absorbed every deragoratory word and demeaning remarks and fuck!, every bit of my body felt instantly on fire. I forgot about Jeff who kept on sending me messages hoping I’d reply. I don’t have time for your pa-cute act…

I unbuttoned and zipped down my jeans sabay insert ng right hand ko inside my panties to play with my clit. The scene felt all similar during my first encounter with him, pleasuring myself while libog na libog na binabastos nya sa chat. My pussy felt so wet and super sensitive na parang every movement of my fingers might bring me agad to my climax. I badly wanted to get fucked.

“Sensya na hehe. Nalilibugan kasi ako na nanjan ka lang sa kwarto at wala silang kaalam alam…” bawi pa nya na mejo nahalata nya siguro na baka na-ooffend na ako sa mga sinasabi nya kasi hindi na ako nagrereply.

“Did you just say sorry? Lol… Don’t be, you are just speaking your mind and being brutally honest with me. I like that about you. That’s how you got me and that’s how you’ll keep getting me…” reply ko sa kanya. “Besides lahat naman ng mga sinasabi mo are true… I enjoy cheating away from everyone’s blind perception about me.” dagdag ko pa.

Then I took a selfie habang nakahiga and held my phone with my right hand fully stretched out palayo sa akin. Although it is hidden from the camera view, you can tell by the position of my other arm na it’s reaching onto something… that’s my left hand playing with my basang basang pussy. Everything seems like a repeat of what happened during our first encounter…. Yet only this time, I sent him a selfie with my tongue sticking out licking my upper lip corner.

“So I’m keeping it all real with you as well. I’m here in your bed playing with myself and patiently waiting for you to come…” pang-aakit ko pa sa kanya.

“They can make ligaw all they want pero you own me…. You don’t need to make me feel good Dan. Humiga ka lang and watch me ride your cock till labasan ka 😊”

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Ch.8(b) – The Girl Next Door

“They can make ligaw all they want pero you own me…. You don’t need to make me feel good Dan. Humiga ka lang and watch me ride your cock till labasan ka 😊”

I didn’t receive any response after that message. A few seconds later, I heard footsteps of someone papalapit sa room. Before I could even react, bumukas na lang yung pinto and Dan showed up and smugly looked right at me as he gently closed the door. I didn’t bother to adjust my position like him being there ain’t going to embarrass me anymore.

Dan pulled the sofa chair and positioned it right the middle of the room ng nakapaharap sa akin. He then sat down like a king na naka-slouch pa while rubbing his cock sa labas ng shorts nya. His cock started to poke inside his shorts much to my delight as I kept on playing naman and seducing him with my libog faces pa lalo.

“Tangina ka ang libog mo…!” sabi ni Dan habang pinapakita nya sa akin kung gaano ka erect yung cock poking out of his shorts.

Nilandian ko yung ngiti ko while I continued putting more pressure sa clit ko, pleasuring myself without any inhibitions sa mga kalibugang pinapakita ko kay Dan. I was over the edge when I lifted my head up with alapaap face while my upper body naman bent upwards sa sarap. My moans and body reactions are all me at walang halong kaartehan but with additional showmanship for Dan.

After reaching the pinnacle of a huge orgasm coming, I brought my body down to pace myself once again. I opened my eyes and saw Dan already standing next to me and naked down below. Nakahiga pa rin ako sa bed and all I can see was the underside of his manhood standing proudly showing its full thickness and length. Damn! he’s so big talaga.

I stared into his eyes with a serious face as he mounted his left knee sa bed while yung isang paa nya nasa floor. Hinawi nya yung hair ko away from my face as his cock slowly and slowly inching in sa lips ko. I opened my mouth without any hesitation while titig na titig pa rin ako sa mga mata nya. His right hand is gripping the IKEA bed frame while yung left hand nya was holding his cock, jacking it off close to my face.

His cock began to circle around my lips as he held my head steady with his right hand sabay guide ng titi nya papasok sa mouth ko. His cock went aiming straight inside of my right cheek then started fucking my mouth gently. Suddenly everything felt so right and as my fingers continued rubbing my pussy while nilalagare ni Dan yung bibig ko.

Dan stripped off the towel wrapping my upper body before throwing it down sa floor. He went ahead making lamas sa boobs ko while his cock kept on sawing my mouth. I was about to take my jeans off when we heard a buzzing sound galing sa phone nya. He grabbed his phone to checked who it was and then quickly turned the screen back at me so that I can read the message. It was Jeff.

Jeff: “Pre, remind ko lang na sa atin atin lang muna yung meet-up namin ni J bukas. Baka kasi madulas ka jan eh, ayaw nya muna kasi paalam kay Christian… Goodluck din pala kay ‘pamangkin’ hehe…

Jeff typed in the word ‘pamangkin’ in a sarcastic tone na parang inaasar pa nya si Dan. “Sabihin ko na good luck din sa date nyo haha!…” Dan said to me while smiling and feeling proud as he typed in his reply.

This uncharted ‘cheating’ kink suddenly kicks in. Dan proudly wishing us good luck as he thrust his cock sa mouth ko felt arousing-ly deviant. I was so consumed by libog that I grabbed his phone from him at ako na nagtype ng reply.

“Busy sya eh baka mainggit ka lang…” reply ko kay Jeff while imitating Dan’s kayabangan.

I threw his phone to my side sabay hawak ng right hand ko sa titi ni Dan. Inangat ko na yung ulo ko then I bobbed my head up and down sa malaking titi nya. I stayed true sa nireply ko kay Jeff… I was indeed busy — busy sucking off Dan’s cock… and I’m sure na maiinggit lang sya if he insists to see me.

He pulled me away and I swear to God I looked like a freaking toddler na inagawan ng candy. I have this iyamot reaction when he ordered me to get up so he can lay down sa bed. Pagkahiga nya, it didn’t take long for my mouth to get back on working as I engulfed his cock agad as if the life of the entire universe depended on it. Sa sobrang busy ko sa ginagawa ko, hindi ko na napansin na nagreply na pala sa kanya si Jeff until nakita ko na lang na kinakalikot na nya yung phone nya.

I saw him smiling again ng mayabang while holding his phone ng dalawang kamay and typing his reply like I don’t matter or what I’m doing to him isn’t worthy of attention. Was me servicing him became his new normal? I wasn’t offended naman. In fact, I have accomplished what I initially planned to be doing – making him feel like a winner.

“Picturan daw kita ng patago…” Sabi ni Dan sa akin sabay harap ulit sa akin ng phone nya para to show me their convo.

Jeff : Sabi na eh, hindi ‘pamangkin’ yan eh… nauto mo lahat haha… enjoy pre!

Dan: Haha! BJ nya nga ako habang kausap kita. Sarap!

Jeff : Pwede ba yun habang nagtete-text? Garapalan haha!

Dan : Totoo pre, maniwala ka.

Jeff : Weh sige nga! Picturan mo ng pasimple. Atin-atin lang…

I let go of his cock after reading their exchanges. I looked at Dan and saw him na nakangiti ng pilit kasi alam nya na hindi naman ako papayag. Of course my preference is to never leave any trails of this kalokohan, but I do understand that it would mean so much to him kapag pumayag ako.

Nevertheless, the thrill of revealing myself to Jeff has overtaken me. Maybe because I was so frustrated about his pa-gentleman act that I became so numb and guiltless if he indeed find out about the truth. What would his reactions be if he knew na ako yung kasama ni Dan sa room?

“Don’t show my face okay….” sabi ko kay Dan na palambing as I went back to working on his cock again.

Not long after, I heard camera clicks coming from his phone. I was tempted to look up to see what’s going on but I was worried potentially being recognized so tuloy tuloy lang ako sa pagtrabaho ko sa titi nya. I felt exposed and my entire face felt hot, blushing from every shutter sound coming from his phone camera. I have no idea what came to me at pumayag ako pero at the same time nilalamon na rin ako ng libog ko, just literally thinking; “Shit! makilala ba nya ako?…”

“Tingin ka J!…” Dan demanded. I was holding his cock with my right hand while nakasubo ako sa other half when I nod my head up a little and looked at his phone aiming towards me.

A few clicks later, Dan showed me the photos na balak nyang i-send kay Jeff. It was a relief that I couldn’t distinguish myself in those photos as most of the shots taken were only showing his huge cock standing straight up with my head in a yuko sucking position. The photo of me looking up concerned me a little even though it’s kind of a bit blurry and more than half of my face was covered by hair. Maybe because I knew it was me kaya nakilala ko sarili ko? Will Jeff recognize it is actually me without any prior assumption or conjecture na ako yun?

Dan smiled gave me a look like he was asking for consent. I didn’t respond by words. Instead, I went back and gave his cock head a tight sipsip as I let my body language speak for itself. He smiled back sabay kalikot ulit ng konti sa phone nya before putting his phone down to his right.

“Sana makilala nya na ikaw yun hehe…” hirit pa nya sabay hawak ng left hand nya sa buhok ko sabay push ng hips nya pataas sa bibig ko.

He went ahead and fucked my mouth rapidly for an entire minute or so until my gag reflex couldn’t take it anymore and my mouth ejected on it’s own out of torture. I was grasping for breath while punong puno ng laway yung bibig ko at titi nya. I hated it when he fucked my mouth so harshly so I gave him a sungit look which of course hanggang ganun lang naman ang magagawa ko.

“Sakyan mo na titi ko J hanggang labasan ako….” he said ordering me to fulfil my promise to him earlier.

I didn’t waste any time as I stood up agad and stripped down completely naked before climbing on top of him. My eyes were shut when my knees bent down as I guided his cock all the way sa loob ng pussy ko. I can feel his thickness devouring inside of me but compared to our first encounter, I was a little bit more relaxed this time around.

I began gently bouncing my hips until my pussy got used to his size, doing so while giving a seductive stare. My pussy was on fire sa kada taas baba ko sa kanya. Dan’s hands began to crawl to my waists, probably to guide my rhythm, pero I caught those hands and threw them away.

“Sabi ko relax ka lang. Watch me lang…” Sabi ko sa kanya.

I planted my hands sa ibabaw ng belly nya, supporting my upper body and hold it steady. Nakatitig lang ako sa kanya while smiling at him ng malandi as I began wiggling my hips without moving my entire body, bouncing up and down yet in a pa-sexy circular motion.

Sounds taboo pero this is probably what my parents have been preparing me for. Dancing has always been a part of my life since I was a little and it never occurred to me that I was honing my giling skills na pala at such a young age.

Dan’s phone buzzed and once again and it was Jeff. He turned his phone agad to let me read the message;

Jeff: Panalo pre. Totoo nga! Video naman kung papayag…

“Sendan natin sya ng video…” hirit ni Dan agad ng pabiro while I’m still trying to read the message kasabay ng pagkabayo ng hips ko sa titi nya.

“No way noh…” sagot ko agad. “Swerte na nga na hindi ako nakilala tapos ngayon video pa..”

“Akong bahala teka..” sabi habang inuurong nya katawan nya

Dan carried me and adjusted our position na nakahiga sya sideways sa bed. His left hand was holding the phone with the back camera aiming at the reflection of the closet doors filled with mirrors. My backside was facing those mirrors na nakaibabaw kay Dan while hiding my identity.

“Giling na J… galingan mo, mapapanood to ni Jeff…” pang aasar pa nya.

I did what he asked and began grinding my hips again sa titi nya as he hit the record button from his phone. I couldn’t tell the outcome of the video pero I was cautious not do any unnecessary movements above my shoulders… nakafocus lang ako sa pag giling ng hips ko.

The whole scenario brought my libog to a whole new level. What happened to not leaving trails behind J?… Naka fast forward na yung imagination ko with Jeff watching the video while debating himself if it’s me that he’s actually seeing. Jeff knew I was in my hotel room, all pampered and having a relaxing night…. unsuspecting that the girl he’s watching is his long time crush, witnessing her skilled waist on top of his undeserving friend’s cock.

I tried to contain my moans as much as I could and settled for making those pigil na pigil ungol sounds… worried sick about the possibility na makilala if I scream my lungs out. Dan wasn’t even moving his hips. He just lays there while ako yung kumakantot sa kanya na parang nasa likod ko lang si Jeff and he’s watching me perform kung paano ako trumabaho ng lalaki.

I rode Dan’s cock with pure grace like I was trying to punish Jeff for wasting so many years of pagiging torpe… not knowing na madali lang pala ako pagilingin. Sinexyhan ko pa yung pagbend ng body ko sa ibabaw ni Dan to showcase my proficient hips built to bounce in frantic rhythm. The thought of Jeff witnessing all of this without knowing it was actually me made me lose a little bit of control and all of a sudden I exploded na lang bigla.

My mouth gaped open in a silent cry habang naka clenched yung fists ko ng madiin sa katawan ni Dan. A shockwave of sarap rocketed up my spine and exploded all over me. Strangely, aware pa rin ako na I was being filmed, so my basic instinct kept me from any unnecessary movements… but fuck, I could only do half of it. All the will power I had left kept my upper body steady but I lost all control naman sa buong lower body and trembled uncontrollably from a rapid orgasm.

All the efforts of trying to minimize movements and holding back to scream para hindi makilala were all for nothing as Dan finally put me out of my misery when he pointed his phone directly towards my alapaap face.

“Sarap ba J? Sarap ba ng titi ko?…” habang hinahaging nya pa yung hair ko para mas lalo pa akong makilala. He then stopped the recording as soon as my body collapsed on top of him.

Dan held his phone and played the recording we just did. The video was a little less shaky than I predicted and the view from the closet mirror’s reflection perfectly captured this girl na sarap na sarap habang gumigiling sa ibabaw ng lalaki. I looked like a pro with the way I kembot my hips like I’ve been riding cocks my entire life.

I watched my hips, ass and legs shudder tightly and twerked on its own sa sarap like it was so obvious that I came. In the end, the video revealed that the girl was me glowing from utter ecstasy.

“Tangina sarap mo tingnan… pinakita mo pa na nilalabasan ka…” hirit pa ni Dan habang patawa tawa

“Send ko na ba?…” I heard him asked as he scrolled his phone back to Jeff’s convo.

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Ch.8(c) – The Girl Next Door

“Send ko na ba?…” I heard him asked as he scrolled his phone back to Jeff’s convo.

“Don’t you dare….” banta ko pa before grabbing the phone from his hands to delete the video he just took.

I rose up pero nakapatong pa rin ako sa kanya while both hand were busy sa kakalikot ng phone. I was about to delete the video when suddenly I felt him hold my waist while his cock aiming at my pussy hole sabay banat bigla pataas. Dan jackhammered me with such force that I lost grip of his phone and it fell through the bed and slid all the way down to the floor just before I could delete the video.

Dan flipped me over into a reverse cowgirl position with me facing the mirror. That was new to me at that time so I have no idea how to move or where to mount myself but Dan maneuvers my arms so that I can plant both kamay into his body. I leaned my body back while his legs and knees guided my own legs to spread as wide as it could. Dan guided his cock into my pussy and once it was in, he held my hips and urged me to pump my hips.

Seeing myself in front of the mirror with a perfect view of Dan’s cock penetrating in and out of my puke was a sight I’ll never forget. Sure, the squatting position wasn’t easy and proved to be exhausting but I dig Dan for exploring and fucking me in any way that he could think of. Or maybe it wasn’t about him, maybe he wanted me to witness for myself stretch my pussy willingly for all my future boyfriends / husband.

Suddenly we heard familiar voices coming from the corridor. Nabosesan ko si Christian while the other guy I assumed was Dan’s other housemate Eric. They were talking loudly before knocking on the door and calling out Dan’s name.

So much for me taking over sa pag papasarap as Dan ignored them and started thrusting his hips upward ng mabilis. I wasn’t expecting him to do that kaya napasigaw talaga ako as he continued fucking me paitaas until I lost all control and balance na parang automatic na nag-eject nalang yung katawan ko sa kanya. I fell backwards and collapsed sa body nya nya as he wrapped his arms around me with his mouth right next to my left ear.

“Tangina parinig mo pa sa kanila na sarap na sarap ka!…” gigil na pagkakasabi ni Dan.

Dan pushed me again on top ng nakatalikod sa kanya at akala ko he wanted me to ride him again pero he shoved me forward setting me into all fours position while facing the closet mirror. Bumangon naman si Dan and geared himself from behind sabay grab ng waist ko and thrust his cock back inside my pussy.

Dan carried on fucking me ng patalikod, hammering me away without mercy. I was screaming in utter ecstasy as Dan grabbed a fistful of my hair with his left hand para mapaangat pa lalo yung ulo ko. My face was in a mixture of gigil, sarap at simangot without holding anything back.

“Sarap ba ha? Pakantot ka ba ha!?…” Gigil na tanong ni Dan as he slaps my pwet ng malakas punishing me like a dog.

“Oh my God! Yes! Pakantot ako… Kantutin mo ako Dan… “ Sigaw ko sa kanya while staring at his reflection from the mirror and hoping that my ecstacy-filled pitch voice wouldn’t be so recognizable sa mga nakakarinig sa labas.

Not long after we heard footsteps like they were walking away from our room. This time tahimik lang sila… probably trying not to make any sound para hindi makaistorbo sa amin.

*“*Haha.. Pusta ako narinig ka nyang libog na libog na umuungol…” mahinang boses ni Dan

*“*Fuck! I hope narinig nya ako….” sabi ko na parang wala na rin sa sarili “He can listen to me while nagpapakantot ako sayo dito…”

Nakangiti lang si Dan and I can see victory in his face dahil sa sinabi ko sa kanya. Not only he was able to score a girl like me, he manage to turn me in to his own slut… a willing slut na pumapayag sa mga kalibugan at kabastusan nya. He should be proud talaga… Imagine he’s brutally fucking a used-to-be conservative ex-girlfriend ng kaibigan nya. I can see by the way he looks at me from the mirror na libog na libog din sya sa ginagawa namin.

“Tangina wala syang kaalam alam na ikaw na pala yung naririnig nya…” gigil na pagkakasabi nya habang tuloy tuloy lang sya sa pagbayo sa akin “Mamimiss ko tong puke mo J…parang hindi ka ginalaw ni Christian sa sikip…”

“He did… pero not like this…” sagot ko sa kanya in between my grunts and hingal breaths “Maingat sya sa akin unlike you…”

“Tapos maririnig ka nya kung paano kita wasakin ng basta basta lang…” He grunted while grabbing another fistful of my hair and jerking my head back a little — then yung isang kamay nya linalamas yung suso ko at the same time fucking me as hard and fast as he could possibly do.

I knew that right there and then na if by chance Christian have walked in, I would have cum so hard right in front of his sweet face… that and then beg Dan to fuck me again sa harap nya, beg to cum in my face habang pinapanood nya ako.

If only Christian were able to witness the sight of me in front of the mirror. There I was completely naked on my hands and knees in the most pakantot position possible with my pretty face masked of pure libog-filled pleasure, nakasabunot pa rin sa akin yung left hand ni Dan as he pulled my head back sexily habang tuloy tuloy lang sya sa pagbanat ng titi nya sa loob ng pussy ko. My perky size boobs were swinging furiously back and forth in rythm sa tunog ng pagbayo ni Dan sa kama. I can feel my climax once again — my second time while nakabaon yung titi nya sa akin.

“Shit Dan, fuck me pa… I’m close… Don’t stop shit kaaa!….” I screamed as loudly as I could as my whole body began to tingle.

I heard Dan grunted something before he began to ruthlessly pound my pussy so harshly to the point of na I could lose my hair dahil sa tindi ng pagkakasabunot nya sa akin. It didn’t matter as I slam my ass back and forth pa lalo sa kada bayo nya sa likod ko. He slapped my ass once more sabay kapit ng dalawang kamay nya sa balikat ko at hatak sa akin ng malakas para lalong salubungin katawan ko yung pagkantot nya. I held on for my dear life while nakakapit ako ng madiin sa bedsheets as wave after wave of pure pleasure filled every fibre of my being.

“Oh my God Dan… Dont stop… Puchaaaa!…” sigaw ko as my vision began to sparkle with lights in anticipation of a massive orgasm, so hard that I may pass out na lang bigla.

All of a sudden, bigla namang huminto si Dan sa pagkantot sa akin sabay hugot ng titi nya sa pussy ko. A moment of panic and frustration surged through me dahil I was so close na talaga to cum but the wait only lasted for a second as he flipped me to the bed kaagad and started fucking me missionary style — and fuck did my orgasm return with a vengeance to greater heights as my body bent forward on its own while nakatingala ako sa bed frame in diliryo face.

“Ohhh Goossh Dan. Oohhhh fffuucckk shittt kaaaaa!!!!…” sigaw ko with all of my heart as my whole world exploded in absolute ecstasy as the worlds biggest orgasm tore through my spasming body.

Nothing else seemed to exist to me other than pure sarap that filled my whole forking world. Blanko na utak ko at nawawalan na ng hininga habang pinapanood lang ako ni Dan at tuloy tuloy pa din sya sa pag kantot sa akin. I can tell na he’s getting close na din and ready to explode anytime soon.

“Mmmm, Dan… Dan…” I said ng hinihingal, smiling ng malandi as I finally got him to look into my eyes habang binabanatan nya ako

“…Malapit ka na?..” tanong ko habang halatang namimilipit na yung expression ng face nya. “Dont cum sa loob ko ha!.…”

“Taena puputok ko sa loob mo to hayup kaaa….” gigil na pagkakasabi nya habang todo bigay sya sa pagbayo sa akin.

“Please… swallow nalang kita…” beg ko sa kanya while slowly regaining my senses after ko mag cum.

“Swallow alin?… Sabihin mo…” nangiinis pa nyang tanong.

“Cum in my mouth… Swallow ko yung cum mo…” I said teasingly. Offering my mouth as a cum dump made me feel even more slutty

Dan kept on groaning out of the struggle of holding back his cum as he gave my pussy a few more thrust ssabay hatak sa akin sa floor and dropping me off my feet. I sank to my knees in front of him while nakatitig lang ako sa mga mata nya, anxiously waiting for about to happen next.

“Buka mo bibig mo J… taena kaaa…” sigaw ni Dan na halos marinig na sa labas ng room yung pagsigaw nya sa pangalan ko while jacking his fists up and down sa titi nya na nakatutok sa face ko.

I did what he asked like a submissive slut that I am… I glanced to my left and saw our reflection from the mirror to what it looks like myself in a porno scene – on my knees while yung buong katawan ko was heaving from the fuck he just gave me, while naka open yung mouth eagerly waiting for him to cum.

Suddenly Dan grabbed my hair on top of my head as I saw his cock expanding pa lalo. A few seconds later, he groaned ng malakas before erupting his tamod all over me. He was aiming at my open mouth pero his cum flew and went straight to my nose and cheeks area. My face clinched, closing my eyes and mouth out of a knee-jerk reaction so when his second shot hit me, it never went inside my mouth. The next few spurts didn’t hit me at all and he’s drained na after the first round.

Nakapikit pa rin ako when I felt the tip of his cock touch my lips. My mouth self-moved before opening up to let him in. I can feel his cum dripping on my face as I looked up and stared at him again ng malandi… sabay sispsip ng matindi sa titi nya, tasting some of his cum in the process.

“Taena ma-mimiss kita, Hindi nalabas ni Chrsitian libog mo tangina malas nya…” Hirit ni Dan. For a moment I let him enjoy this majestic sight of me, the girl that everyone thinks so holy and proper, yet there I was on my knees with my cum covered duck face lips wrapping around his lucky cock.

“Sana magkabalikan kayo ni Christian…” biro nya na parang seryoso yung tone

“Para every time makikita ko picture nyo na sweet… lagi ko maiimagine na ilang beses na kita pinaliguan ng tamod sa mukha hehe…” dagdag pa nya

“Haha.. Pervert!… Well, baka balikan ko sya so I can officially cheat on him with you…” sabi ko while nakaluhod pa rin sa floor still covered in cum.

“Check ko lang kung bakit sila kumatok kanina…” Dan said while putting back his shorts.

Narinig ko na lang yung door na bumukas and he’s gone again just like that. Well, I served my ‘parausan’ purpose na sa kanya so that was it, boom boom ciao.

While others treated me like a princess, Dan sees me nothing more than just a mere extension of his cock, a fuck hole whose only worth is to give and receive nothing but sexual gratification. The fact that I wasn’t offended by that tells me how much my awakening has reached full completion.

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Ch.9 – Never break a swear

Nakaluhod pa rin ng paupo while completely hazed from the kantot I received from Dan. My face was still coated by tamod like a warpaint spreading across my chin and chest area. I wasn’t bothered by my ayos. Everything about it felt so damn right, fulfilled with a sense of accomplishment.

Tulala pa rin ako while trying to digest what happened when I saw Dan returned to the room ng nagmamadali and letting me know agad na kakalabas lang daw nila Christian heading to the nearby 7-11 and 24/7 hawker to grab some food and ice. Kaya pala sya kinatok earlier para isama. The only people left in the apartment were the two guys who saw me earlier.

Dan was basically providing me with an option kung gusto ko na daw bang umuwi or wait na lang till the next morning kapag nakaalis na silang lahat. If I decided to leave, he argued na hindi naman daw ako personally kilala nila Eric (and the other visitor guy). Besides, both of them saw me earlier na so it’s completely up to me daw if comfortable ako to be seen again. I badly wanted to go pero at the same time nahihiya ako… lalo na na parang sobrang obvious pa na may nangyari sa amin ni Dan.

For me personally, I’d rather be safe na lang talaga. I was leaning towards staying overnight when suddenly we heard a door shut noise followed by complete silence coming from the living area. Sumilip sa labas si Dan sabay balik sa room and he confirmed na empty na yung living room while nasa kitchen daw yung dalawa habang nagyoyosi. House rules daw nila na bawal mag smoke outside the kitchen area.

Dan mouthed the word “Ano??” like he’s pushing me to make a decision. Panic mode agad ako trying to decide what to do… but for some reason I told myself na “Bahala na…” and went ahead for the escape.

I grabbed my clothes in a hurry and wore them ng mabilisan. I haven’t finished buttoning my top when I saw Dan urging me to move in a hurry. My face was still glistening from his cum at sa panic ko, I tried wiping them using my hands… and yuck, mas lalo tuloy naging kadiri yung nangyari.

I grabbed my bag and carried my own heels and sneaked along the corridor like a ninja while trying not to make any ingay. I stopped for a second just before entering the living room and then took a deep breath before tuluyang tumakbo papunta sa main door. Dan and I were staring at each other while he helped to unlock the door. Pagkabukas ng door, Lumabas din si Dan and he’s pointing at the same exit stair where I went earlier that night.

“Mag stairs ka then sa parking ka dumaan hanggang dulo saka ka lumabas papuntang street…dun ka maghintay ng taxi…” bulong nya while pointing me where to go to avoid any posibility na makasalubong ko yung grupo nila Christian.

Sobra yung stress ko as I went straight to the stairs as fast as I could na para akong kabit na pinapatakas ng lalaking may asawa. Pagkababa ko just before exiting the stairs, I stopped for a minute to fix myself and dug inside my bag when I realized na nakalimutan ko pala sa toilet nila Dan yung make-up pouch ko. My hands were trembling in horror while holding the phone and trying to call Dan so that he could bring my pouch to me, but he wasn’t answering my call.

Napaupo na lang ako sa steps feeling so defeated sa nangyari. My face and hands felt so sticky at pati yung damit ko may marks ng tamod all over… I was literally a mess and feeling so humiliated by how I was rushed out of the apartment like some booty call whore. I can only blame myself for what happened.

Prior to that week I was literally at the highest point of my single dating life. We all have that at some point in our life naman diba? So, I don’t wanna sound too braggy again or feeling nag ma-maganda… but at that time talaga, guys from all sorts of life are drawn to me for some reason. Everyone thinks I’m being too snobby and maarte sa mga lalaki and I have every right to be… why not diba? I’m young, attractive and feeling ko I haven’t reached my peak yet.

Now I’m at my lowest of my low… sitting at the stairs with my bare feet, blouse open and messy face covered with sticky cum. At that point, I stopped caring anymore at gusto ko na lang makabalik sa hotel ko agad. I found nothing in my bag to clean myself up so I wiped those leftover cum in my face using my braso and forearms so now pati arms ko eh feeling malagkit . I know kadiri and ultimate low point talaga.

I walked palabas and followed Dan’s instructions and luckily I was able to get a cab agad. I noticed a few glances from the cab driver pa pero I felt so deflated na parang wala na akong pakialam kung anong iniisip nya sa akin. To be honest, it felt liberating pa nga for not caring anymore at gusto ko pa ngang direchahin si manong uncle na “Yup I know what you’re thinking…Hindi yan pawis manong… Tamod sya…”

I was too beat up to the point na naka tulala lang ako sa window ng taxi buong ride pauwi. I was happy that I got away without anyone noticing and sobrang looking forward ako to get some well-earned sleep.

At the hotel, I took off my clothes at napahiga agad ako sa kama sa pagod. That sticky cum all over me has all dried up like it has already absorbed into my skin permanently. That’s when I started to recall lahat lahat ng nangyari that night. Oh God, did I just break so many of my life rules for a guy I just met a few days ago?

My rational thinking was all back When things were back to normal. I started to question everything that I’ve done na parang kinakausap ko yung sarili ko in a group chat:

J: I couldn’t believe na ako pa talaga pumunta sa place ng lalaki just to get laid.

J: Fuck, did I just do a strip show to tease a guy I barely knew?

J: Oh my God, sya ang first blowjob ko!!! His cock in my mouth… I milked his cock with my mouth… The horror…

J: Did I just go to a stranger guy’s place and offer my virgin mouth to him while my ignorant ex-boyfriend was just outside the room and has no idea what’s happening?

I remember how it took almost 2 years for Christian just to kiss me sa lips ng matagal. Ganun talaga ako ka strict sa kanya. He waited for years and earned everything just so he can smack and feel my “treasured” lips. I remember kung gaano sya kaingat sa akin during our entire relationship and how he kisses me so gently… yung feel na feel with our eyes closed and all those romantic shit you see in movies.

“Oh mg God, sorry talaga Christian…” I told myself while reminiscing kung paano ko lang pinakantot yung bibig ko sa iba. Dan didn’t need to be patient nor earn anything from me. He walked into my life like he knows what my mouth and my lips were really meant for… doomed for cocksucking. He knew I was a natural-born cocksucker even before I knew it for myself.

Just like that, I began touching myself na naman na parang hindi pa ako nakuntento sa mga nangyari sa amin ni Dan earlier. Every time talaga na naiisip ko how I betrayed everyone’s goody two-shoes perception about me… grabe effect nya sa akin. There’s something about being deceitful that really turns me on in a snap. It’s hella weird that I’m hoping to get caught and witness the disappointment in their faces….. and yet ayoko din malaman nila so I can continue having the thrill of being a slut behind their backs. What’s wrong with me?

I was trying to bring myself to a quick “O” before falling asleep when I heard my phone ringing and it was Christian calling me sa Viber. Hinayaan ko lang sya and went back to what I was doing but then he kept on calling me again and again. Impeccable timing talaga…

“Uy..bakit?…” tanong ko na mejo naiinis pero hindi ko pinapahalata na nagfifinger ako.

“Hello J? Saan ka? Puntahan kita!…” aggressive na tanong nya agad

“Why?…madaling araw na…” reply ko ignoring his urgency.

“Basta… puntahan kita ngayon sige na!…” sabi nya na parang pagalit pa

“Wag na… diba bukas naman magkikita tayo?….” sagot ko na naiirita na din

“Kahit video call na lang… sige na…” pakiusap pa nya as he quickly turned on his video.

I have no clothes on except my underwear so I wrapped my body with kumot and reached out to my left side to open the lampshade next to my bed. I accepted his video request with mataray at badtrip na simangot… completely forgetting na I still have those dried up cum all over my face.

“Saan ka??…” nakaka-inis na tanong pa nya.

“Anong saan?…natutulog kaya ako…” sagot ko while pushing the phone away after noticing how messy I looked, and yet he doesn’t seem to care

“Sa hotel ka ba? Pakita naman…” mejo mahinahon na nyang tanong as I noticed na he’s somewhere outdoor.

While panning my phone around the room, I couldn’t help but wonder why all of a sudden he’s desperate to know where I am. I started to wonder na baka may nakakita sa akin paglabas ko kanina ng unit nila Dan… or nakita nya ako while walking outside the parking lot…or Dan told them it was me etc… so many things are running through my mind.

“Bakit ba kasi?…” tanong ko sa kanya.

“Hehe wala okay na. na confuse lang ako… pero okay na…” reply nya na nagpa-paamo bigla “Sorry… sorry talaga sa abala…”

“Wait bakit? Confuse saan? Tell me… hindi ka tatawag ng ganitong oras if hindi yan importante…” sabi ko na litong lito na din

“Wala yun… basta okay na…” reply pa nya

“May pinakita lang na video si Dan, parang may hawig sayo ng konti… sensya na nataranta lang ako… imposible naman talagang ikaw yun…” dagdag pa nya

I was stunned pero hindi ko pinahalata. Twice na sya nangyari yet nakalimutan ko nanaman na may video ulit kami. The old me would probably overreact and confront Dan right away after I specifically asked him not to share the video – pucha! what the hell was he thinking!

The old me would feel regret or sisisihin ko sarili ko for the things I should’ve done; like I should have known better or dapat talaga hindi na ako pumayag, or at least dapat talaga dinelete ko na agad, etcetera etcetera

That was the old me.

I was calm yet surprisingly thrilled that Christian saw the video. Mejo clueless lang ako kung bakit hindi nya ako namukhaan since at the very end of the video clearly showed it was me. It wasn’t like my face was partially covered or the angle didn’t catch it, none of that shit. Alam kong ako yun and it was me in pure ecstasy. Dan and I watched it together so i’m sure of it. Pero it looks like Christian didn’t see that part since he got his ‘assurances’ nga na it wasn’t me.

“Anong video? Anong ginagawa?…” painosente ko pang tanong na parang I wanted to hear it directly from him pa… I wanted him to describe to me kung paano ako gumiling sa video.

“Wala naman haha… scandalish video hehe kaya alam kong imposible na ikaw yun..” he replied to my disappointment.

“May babae kasi na nasa kwarto nya ngayon… alam kong hindi ikaw yun pero mejo nataranta lang ako ng konti… ewan basta hehe… kaya chineck ko lang at naabala pa kita….” dagdag pa nya

“Ganun? And you thought it was me? Na I’m capable to do something like that?…” Tanong ko sabay lapit ng phone ko pa closer to my face.

The quality of the video call saved him from learning the truth because a part of me wanted him to notice the dried-up tamod coating my face. He can see kung gaano kagulo yung hair ko but he’s probably assuming na magulo sya dahil he woke me up from sleep.

He has no idea na proud pa akong pinapakita ko sa kanya kung paano ako binaboy ni Dan. I felt a flush of libog flow through me and I started playing with my pussy once again while yung other hand ko is holding the phone aiming at my face.

“Alam ko namang hindi ikaw yun… at imposibleng ikaw yun…” depensa pa nya pero kanina lang eh sobrang natataranta sya.

“Nanjan pa ba yung girl?…” painosente ko pang tanong.

“Oo nasa kwarto pa nya… ayaw ipakilala sa amin ni Dan eh… anyway okay na… ayoko ng pagusapan si Dan haha… “ sagot nya

“So, kaya ka tumawag para i-check kung ako yung girl?… Wow…“ nagkukunwari pa akong disappointed sa kanya to cover up the truth.

“Siguro… sorry na. For so many reasons, alam ko namang hindi ikaw yun. Humirit lang si Brian na parang ikaw daw yung babae sa video… nakatalikod kasi… kaya parang nag alala din ako… kahit 100% akong sure na hindi ikaw yun…” explaination nya.

“Si Dan puro yabang lang pero sobrang masikreto kaya tingin ko prosti yung babae kasi kahit picture eh wala syang mapakita… palabas pa nya kanina relative daw ng wife nya…” dagdag pa nya. I didn’t say anything. I just smiled at him like I was trying to showcase my lips pa right after giving someone else a masterful cocksucking for the very first time.

Wala syang idea na ako yung tinutukoy nyang “pokpok” na sinasabi nyang pumatol kay Dan. Sorry na lang but he’s clueless talaga. He still sees me as the same conservative ex-girlfriend that he had, so he couldn’t believe it was my ass and hips yung taas babang kamakabayo sa titi ng ka-tropa nya.

Christian should know better as he had seen me dance a thousand times before. He has seen how agile I am as he watches me try out for our school’s cheerleading dance team. He was there for me when I failed to make the final cut and encouraged me to be better… and I got better. Squatting on top of a guy and gracefully bouncing my whole hips to a huge cock pala was all I’ve been preparing for. How do I look now, Christian? Ginalingan ko para sayo.

All these thoughts has put me on the verge of cumming kaagad at napapikit nalang ako sa sarap.

“Sige go back to sleep na alam kong inaantok ka na…” he said as he thought I was falling asleep.

“Sorry ulit ginising pa kita. Inumaga na kami pero hapon pa naman tayo magkikita diba?…” reply nya at naiba na topic namin. We then talked for a while and agreed na sya maghahatid sa akin sa airport for my flight later that day..

Our call ended and soon enough I phoned Dan right away to confront him about his betrayal. I was waiting for him to answer the call when I realized that maybe telling him may not be such a good idea. Pagkasagot nya ng phone, I decided not to mention anything about the video. I crafted a plan to lure him into meeting me so I can ambush his phone and delete the video myself before having ideas of making any copies.

“Oh gising ka pa? Hotel ka na?…” casual nyang tanong after answering the call.

“Yeah okay na…” reply ko

“Hey, if you like… we can see each other tom before ako umalis?… Nakalimutan ko yung pouch ko jan sa toilet, kung okay lang idaan mo sana here sa hotel before checking out…” sabi ko while getting to the point agad.

“Narealize ko lang din that we never had a proper goodbyes sa pagmamadali…” lambing ko pa kunwari para ma-convince ko sya na makipagkita.

“Haha oo nga eh, nanlalagkit ka pa sa pagmamadali…” biro pa nya.

“Haha yeah and I left my pouch pa jan sayo… I found nothing to clean myself up… so umuwi ako with your tamod all over me….” I said while teasing him yet totoo namang nangyari

“Tangina haha.… Everytime kasi na nakikita ko yang masungit mong mukha… parang ang sarap mo laging paliguan ng tamod haha…” biro pa nya

“Pero baka hindi kita ma-meet bukas ng umaga. Bahala na kung magising ako. Message na lang kita…” sabi nya.

I tried my best to make kulit about meeting him again to the point na I was begging him na pero hindi sya talaga makapangako sa akin. Our convo felt like closure, we were bidding farewells like we had already seen each other for the last time. He wishes na Singapore pa rin ang piliin ko for my next destination but he doubts of continuing to see me again kasi parating na rin daw yung family nya.

He claimed that he knew how to get through me despite him being out of my league. I never believed him when he yabang about how he saw the ‘hidden libog’ in my eyes daw during our first meeting. Can guys really tell? He thought of ‘scoring’ me as a priority after finding out na ako pala yung ‘infamous’ ex-girlfriend ni Christian. He gambled on himself and went all out and aggressive. Para sa kanya, he considered it a win na daw If he can speak ng bastos freely in front of me.

Him being rude and jerk was something that he never thought he would be able to express to a girl. He hopes that I don’t get offended pa daw, but when he calls me his ‘pokpok’ and ‘parausan’, that’s what he truly sees me and nothing more. It’s not like he doesn’t find me attractive or nag fe-feeling gwapo sya… he told me straight na sex lang talaga ang gusto nya sa akin.

He told me about the past rejections he endured in the past from girls like me na according to him eh ‘maarte at snobby’… kaya daw minsan masyadong personal mga hirit nya sa akin. He doesn’t hate me as J, In fact I was nothing but kind to him naman daw. He just utterly hates the type of girl that I represent, kaya sobrang gratifying daw to treat me like I was nothing.

After our first hook-up, he admitted to ghosting me after realizing the potential impact of it to his friends and family. He’s concerned daw that I might get clingy or do something ‘loco’ to ruin his marriage and his relationship with his friends given my inexperience with the setup. Him being ‘obnoxious’ was his way daw to push me away and make it appear like hooking up with him was a mistake. He’s committed not to bother me anymore until nalaman nya na gusto akong pormahan ni Jeff.

“So nag selos ka?..” tanong ko pa habang natatawa.

“Haha hindi naman… gusto ko lang ipagmayabang sa sarili ko na nakantot na kita bago sya…” reply nya.

“And you did…” sabi ko sa kanya. “Dont worry Dan… I’ll never ever forget this whole trip, this whole experience…I owe it sayo..”

“Besides ikaw ang first blowjob ko… Y’know kung gaano sya ka big deal sya sa akin… Nobody would ever take that away from you… not Christian or even future boyfriends…” I said truthfully.

“Oo nga eh… biro mo hindi mo nagawa kay Christian tapos ako ginawa ko lang parausan bibig mo kanina…” Pagmamayabang pa nya. “Tapos inamin mo pa kanina na pakantot bibig mo… tangina talaga…”

Our cheesy convo took a drastic turn bigla and switched my libog back again. Dan wasn’t just blurting out dirty words for the sake na makapambastos lang… his candor delivery and the way he describes my disgraceful acts always finds its way to get through me. Damn! Ganun na ba ako ka-easy? na parang konting hirit nya ng mga ganun, nakukuha nya na agad yung libog ko.

“Sayo lang, Dan…” mahinang sabi ko while pleasuring myself

“Sayo lang alin?…” kunwari pang hindi nya nagets yung sinabi ko

“Papakantot ko lagi bibig ko sayo Dan…” I proudly declared while my orgasm starting to build up.

“Mangako ka ulit…” utos pa nya

I hesitated for a bit but then the chance of seeing him again was slim so mejo confident ako swearing and doing sweeping declarations. I get aroused din when he empowers me so what I said next almost brought me close to climax agad;

“I swear na papakantot ko lagi bibig ko sayo, dan…” I vowed with all my heart.

“Isusubo mo titi ko kahit saan at kahit kailan ko gusto… Tama?…” reply nya bidding for more affirmation.

“Yes I will…” I uttered while feeling myself getting really close.

“So kahit may boyfriend o asawa ka na, isusubo mo pa din titi ko kapag ginusto ko?….” dagdag pa nya

“They can all watch habang kinakantot mo mouth ko sa harap nila…” I cummed right after saying those words.

“Haha magdasal ka na hindi tayo magkita habang kasama mo si Christian… yayariin ko bibig mo sa harap nya…” pabiro nyang sabi

We talked for a while and finally said our goodbyes. But in order to get the right closure that we both agreed to, that scandal video of us has to be deleted talaga. I wanted to move on without leaving any evidence kahit pa somehow I trust him.

I was about to bring it up when our conversation ended abruptly. I waited for him to call me back but then he didn’t. Regardless, I felt at peace na rin after that talk. Walang hung-ups or bitterness and regret. I was more than ready to get back to my previous life.

While browsing my phone to sleep, I checked those messages from Jeff that I ignored earlier and he’s being makulit talaga, proposing to join me for breakfast at my hotel nalang rather than go out for brunch. That way daw less hassle daw sa akin and no more excuse to turn him down.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I really do like Jeff. I’m attracted to him and he’s easy to get along with. I’m a sucker pa naman for guys making an effort and initiative. I’m just disheartened by his timing lang talaga. But now that Dan and I just closed our chapter and I have zero interest in getting back together with Christian, so going out with Jeff seems appropriate. I texted him back and set our breakfast meet-up at 8am. Nagulat ako na gising pa pala sya at nag reply sa akin ng *“*Yes! it’s a date 🙂 See you…”

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I slept and woke up the next day around 7am-ish. I got everything ready including my luggage for easy check out later. I decided not to be overly dressed since it’s a breakfast meet up so I just wore a simple baby pink sando and jeans. I decided to go with the casual nerdy look by wearing thick-framed low-prescription glasses to compensate for not wearing any makeup since I left them sa room ni Dan.

I met Jeff from the hotel lobby then we proceed to the breakfast hall. He immediately noticed the glasses and told me na bagay daw sya sa akin and that I look even cuter having it on. Enjoy naman kami while eating. We talked almost everything about each other and he always made me feel like I’m his ‘ultimate crush’. Bolero lang…

I can’t help but like this guy agad. There’s magic in the air na parang sobrang rare mangyari on a first date. It doesn’t help pa na he’s gwapo and jacked and I couldn’t help myself being amazed by him. He shared almost everything he knows about me and yet I’m embarrassed na hindi ko sya maalala. Kind of a feel-good romantic love story talaga if we really ended up together.

About an hour had passed when suddenly I heard my phone ringing and it was Dan. I canceled the call agad pero nag message din sya after;

“Nandito ako sa lobby, dala ko yung pouch mo… Iiwan ko nalang ba sa reception?…”

Panic mode agad ako. My heart flutters and my face starts to blush. I didn’t really care about my make-up pouch talaga as I can easily buy them again. All I cared about was deleting our video so we can finally move on na talaga. Jeff noticed that something was wrong so I told him an excuse that the message was from my mom and pretended that I forgot to get something she asked me to buy for her.

“Tara samahan kita, may time pa naman…” offer pa nya sa akin.

“Uhm.. can you wait here? saglit lang? I’ll check my bags lang sa room kasi alam ko nabili ko na sya…” palusot ko pa

“You sure?, samahan kita… tulungan na kita maghanap…” offer nya ulit habang patayo na sya

*“*No… no, ok lang… ako nalang… 5 minutes lang ako… besides babalik pa ako for some cake…” palusot ko ulit.

“Alright.. Take your time, ok lang ako dito…” sabi ni Jeff

I texted Dan agad to wait for me while I rushed myself to the lobby. Luckily nasa upper floor yung dining hall so at least these two idiots are in separate locations. I saw Dan agad from a distance holding a paper cup coffee and my pouch. Dan saw me as well na pababa ng stairs at lumapit sya agad para i-abot sa akin yung pouch pero I told him straight na all I wanted is for him to delete our video sa harapan ko mismo.

I told him that I knew that he shared our video after the whole video call fiasco I had with Christian last night. He apologized and said that he cropped the end part of the video (the part where it showed my face) with the intention of showing it to Brian lang. ‘Nagalit’ daw sya when Brian shared it sa buong tropa.

“Kaya pala gustong lumusob sa kwarto ko nung una… namukhaan ka nya pala hahaha…” biro pa ni Dan.

I urged Dan to delete the video so that he can leave na pero parang nakakahalata sya kung bakit ko sya pinapaalis agad. That left me no choice but to admit that I’m in the middle of a breakfast date with Jeff at the dining hall.

He didn’t say anything at first pero bigla nalang nya akong hinawakan sa kamay sabay hila sa akin papunta sa lift lobby. I kept on insisting that he needs to go but then tumingin lang sya sa akin sabay sabing; “You swore diba? Nangako ka!….”

I was stunned and literally frozen to where I was standing.

“No no… no no no…nooo… not right now…” I said in a panic as I realized what he wanted me to do “We moved on, Jeff’s waiting… please naman…”

“You swore, J…” He said while smiling as he stepped inside the lift and waiting for me to come in.

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Ch.10 – Rudely Awakened

Tulala pa rin akong nakatayo sa lift lobby as he held the elevator door open and urging me to hop in. I kept shaking my head “NO” pero taas balikat lang sya na parang sinasabi nyang wala akong choice humindi.

“Wag ngayon Dan… I really really like this guy. Please…” plead ko sa kanya.

“You swore J. Hindi kita pinilit mangako…” he calmly said

Jusko I really thought we were over. Yes I swore, and yes I meant what I said, but I didn’t think I’d see him again this soon. Halos lumipad na isip ko sa kakaisip ng paraan how to get push him away but I got nothing. My kunsensya kept on screaming “What about Jeff? What about Jeff?” but at the same time, there’s this rush of guilt for not going through with my word even though I’m not into superstitious shit.

“I can’t fucking believe this…” frustrated kong sabi sa kanya as I hopped inside the lift.

“Delete mo na yung video… right here, right now…” pagtataray ko pa sa kanya habang umaandar paakyat yung lift.

“Sayang hindi ko pa to napapakita kay Jeff…” sabi nya sabay pakita sa akin na dinelete na nya yung video.

My mind was in haze trying to come up with an excuse for Jeff habang umaakyat yung lift papunta sa room floor ko. Oh my God, Should I call him, text him or just leave him there waiting? Shit anong excuse ko sa kanya?

My thoughts were interrupted when Dan grabbed my left hand papunta sa crotch ng pants nya, wanting me to feel his sobrang tigas ng cock. I gave him my taray look and mouthed the words “Ur sick…” while my hand remained on his crotch. We exited the lift and he led the way pa to my room. He has nothing on me and I don’t have to agree to this pero I kept on walking pa din sa likod ni Dan na parang I’m obliged to follow him kapag ginusto nya.

He began unbuckling his belt agad the moment we entered my room. He placed his coffee sa desk sabay upo sa desk chair as he lowers his pants down. “Galingan mo para mabilis ako labasan at hindi sya maghintay ng matagal…” pangiinis pa nya habang hinihimas himas pa nya yung cock nya outside his underwear.

I began questioning myself as I walked slowly toward him – Is this gonna be my life now from here on out? What if kasama ko yung mga friends ko or parents ko and then suddenly Dan and I stumbled on to each other? What if I’m on a date with my future boyfriend? Or much worse, I’m on my wedding dress looking all pretty and about to get married and then suddenly, he showed up wanting to fuck my mouth just before I walk down the aisle?

They are just hypotheticals and of course the chance of them happening is zilch… pero shit, what if nga? Pucha, the fact na I couldn’t even assure myself says a lot about kung gaano ako ka submissive kay Dan. I kept on breaking my own personal rules and yet I feel far more guilty neglecting this fictitious swear I made to a forking nobody. Does Dan truly own me? I already knew the answer even before asking myself that question.

“Sorry Jeff… duty calls…” I said to myself while smiling in disbelief as I dropped on to my knees and slowly removing Dan’s underwear.

Seeing his super tigas na cock once again felt like I’m in trance and went under some kind of sex spell. All my hesitations or inis or taray are gone in an instant. I reached in and grabbed his cock and I felt electricity agad sa katawan ko.

“Oh my God J… You are on a date, I thought you like Jeff? what are you doing?…” Sabi ko sa sarili ko as I clenched my face in a cute way sa kalibugang gagawin ko.

“Trabaho na J…bibig mo lang as always, no hands…” hirit pa nya na nangiinis.

I was about to take off my glasses when I heard him say; “Iwan mo lang salamin mo. Mas nakakalibog ka tingnan..”

No more long licks of teasing. Walang kaartehan kong sinubo agad sa bibig ko yung titi nya. I sucked his cock like it was my only purpose in life. I shutted my brain trying to forget that I’m in the middle of a date with Jeff who’s only just a few floors below waiting for me. But Dan wasn letting me go that easy and he made sure to remind me of the situation I’m in.

“Anong paalam mo kay Jeff?” Tanong nya habang pinapanood nya akong magtaas baba sa titi nya.

“Sabi ko… may kailangan akong…. i-check… sa baggage ko…” Me trying to speak while having his cock inside my mouth

“Tawagan mo si Jeff parea hindi naman sya mukhang tanga na naghihintay dun…” Sabi nya sabay sabunot sa hair ko at diin ng ulo ko sa titi nya ng matagal.

He buried almost his entire fucking cock all the way to my throat at ako naman si malibog na buong tapang kong tinanggap lahat. I didn’t gag this time around kahit feeling ko na nasu-suffocate ako sa nangyayari. My mouth felt so full like there’s no room for any oral movements. He then removed his grip sa buhok ko assuming I would snap my head out… but nah, I didn’t let go. I wanna show him where his cock truly belongs.

“Cute mong tingnan sa salamin mo… Kung alam lang ni Jeff kung saan ka nagpunta at anong ginagawa mo ngayon hehe…” hirit nya pa while feeling proud sa sarili nya

I kept on apologizing kay Jeff sa utak ko. We were having fun kanina lang and now he’s probably thinking na iniwan ko nalang sya ng basta basta. What’s my excuse for having a massive cock shoved all the way to my throat and it’s all happening right in the middle of our date. How can I ever explain na despite how he viewed me as a catch and perfect, I also have baggage – a lifelong purpose na ipakantot yung bibig ko kay Dan. That’s not a big deal, right?

My mouth finally let go of his cock and stings of saliva trails between my lips at head ng titi nya. Kinuha ko yung phone ko and decided to call Jeff to let him know na I wont be able to get back soon. We don’t have each other’s number yet so I called him via FB messenger. I was gearing up palayo kay Dan when I heard him ordering me na; “Video Call mo sya habang jinajakol mo titi ko…”

Dan wasn’t satisfied pa sa pagpapasarap ko sa titi nya. I don’t want to do it and yet for some reason, I felt my body twitch in libog to his idea.

“No…Dan, please…We don’t have to naman…“ plead ko ulit sa kanya while panting.

“Kaya mo yan… wag kang magpahalata syempre… unless gusto mong ipakita sa kanya hehe…” sabi pa nya as he guided my hand sa pag taas baba sa titi nya

“I like this guy, Dan… please…” pakiusap ko sa kanya and yet hindi ko maalis yung titig ko sa titi nya.

“Talaga? Sweet naman…” Sarcastic nyang hirit. “Mas kilala kita kesa sa kanya…”

“Buong buhay mo ng niloloko lahat ng mga lalake na hindi ka malibog…” sabi pa nya

“Jakulin mo burat ko habang kausap mo sya… “ utos nya ulit.

“Gusto kong mapanood mismo kung paano ka magpanggap na kunwari inosente kang puta ka…” gigil nyang sabi sa libog.

“This is crazy…” sabi ko as I held my phone with my left hand facing me while yung right hand ko eh up and down sa titi nya.

I felt guilty and terrified and yet somehow excited at the same time. I could’ve said no and that could be the end of it… pero parang mas nadagdagan pa yung libog ko just by imagining what’s gonna happen next. As much as I like Jeff and feeling super guilty sa gagawin ko, I realized na mas powerful talaga yung libog side ko than any morals or integrity left I have in me.

I pressed the video call button and I adjusted the angle of the camera agad. I’m visibly on my knees sa floor with my left hand fully stretched like I’m holding the phone in place. My right arm naman is completely hidden pero my shoulders are visibly moving in rhythm, unsure kung anong ginagawa. I noticed that my lips and chin were glistening pa pala dahil sa laway… pero none of it matters anymore as Jeff answered the call right away.

“Uy video call hehe… kailangan mo ng tulong jan…?” Sabi agad ni Jeff na parang nagulat kung bakit pa kailangang naka video call.

“No need… pero hinahanap ko here sa bag…” I said as I pretended na nasa floor yung luggage kaya ako nakaluhod.

“Bili ka nalang ulit para sure… samahan kita… maaga pa rin naman…” Suggestion pa nya

“Sige… good idea. I’ll prep lang ng konti then check-out na din para pagbalik ko later kukunin ko nalang yung luggages….” I said while trying my very best not get distracted by the fact na may pinapasarap akong titi habang kausap ko sya.

“Okay.. sige so, puntahan kita jan? O hintayin kita sa lobby? Kailangan mong tulong sa bagahe?…” Tanong nya.

“Nope okay lang. Mag prep pa ako… I think you should wait nalang jan kesa sa lobby… atleast may food and drinks…” palusot ko pa at parang napapatingin pa ako kay Dan.

“Sige, take your time lang. Ok lang ako dito… “ Sabi nya habang walang syang kaalam alam sa kalibugang ginagawa ko.

I saw Dan sipping his coffee as he enjoyed the theatrics happening in front of him. I thought he wanted to mortify me in front of Jeff pero hindi pala. Dan was just trying to feed his ego by mentally trying to flex his muscle over his friend. Dan and I have done some crazy shits together yet none of them compare to the level of disrespect we are giving to Jeff at that very moment. It’s not visible naman pero I mean, Jeff has no idea na he’s watching na pala his “ultimate crush” tugging off someone else’s cock live, right in the middle of their date.

“Thanks. Sorry Jeff ha…” I said with puffy eyes under my glasses and innocent libog face. I meant being sorry pero he has no idea what I’m really apologizing for.

I’m normally an expressive person so I did a terrible job hiding na nalilibugan ako sa nangyayari. My acting performance was terrible and yet I don’t think naman na iisipin nya na may pinapasarap akong ibang titi habang kausap ko sya. I mean, who would do that right in the middle of a date? Fucking diabolical (in butcher’s accent)

“Ngii… sorry saan? Ok lang talaga… Sa totoo nga mas excited pa ako na na-extend pa breakfast date natin… go take your time ok…” clueless na reply nya

“Basta sorry talaga ha… sige saglit lang ha… bye…” paalam ko sa kanya na parang mas lalo ko pang pinahalata yung pag galaw ng right arm ko before finally hunging up.

That scene ‘litt’ me up with my body literally going on fire as I stood up and threw my phone sa bed. I unbuttoned my jeans sabay luhod ulit sa harap ni Dan. In one swift, fluid motion, sinubo ko ulit yung titi nya all the way till it reached my throat. While my right hand naman reached inside my unbuttoned jeans to play with my already super wet puss.

“Taena lakas maka peke ng image mo…” hirit ni Dan. “Obvious na obvious sa mukha mo yung libog pero walang naniniwala haha…”

I turned deaf and didn’t pay any attention sa mga hirit nya. All I can think about is my own libog while there’s a cock impaled in my mouth. I started sucking his cock with an inch of my life. I rammed my head na parang wala akong pakialam kung ma-deform na yung buong panga ko. I didn’t care because I was built for this very purpose long before I knew it for myself. My divine mouth was all along meant for savage mouth fucking. My petite body frame can be deceiving but I’m without a doubt programmed to carry a brutal pounding.

I was made to fuck.

I stood up bigla and walked towards the full height window near the sofa bed. Pinapanood lang ako ni Dan while I lowered my jeans all the way to my knees and started bending over habang nakahawak sa window. I lustfully stared at Dan and gave him a menacing look like I’m ordering him to come behind me.

Na-gets naman nya ang gusto kong mangyari so, lumapit din sya agad sabay hubad ng T-shirt nya. Just before he’s about to say something humiliating like he normally does…. Words that I would never think of speaking to any other person came freely out of my mouth agad: “Kantutin mo ako Dan… Don’t hold back… Pucha use me…”

Sorry mom and Dad. You raised me good pero heto ako tumutuwad ako sa lalaki.

I groaned when I felt his fat cock slipped fully inside my body. Every nerve ending in my body vibrated and burned habang binabaon nya yung titi nya sa pussy ko. Dan was eager pero controlled yung movements nya until he began pounding me ng mabilis.

I could’ve chosen the floor or sa bed para tumuwad but I didn’t. I wanted him to fuck me in front of the window where there’s a possibility that somebody could see na parang proud pa akong nagpapaka puta sa lalaki. Dan was extra rough this time around at ramdam na ramdam ko sa kada kantot nya sa akin.

My mind was awash, the movements of my body were autonomic responses and my only thoughts were of my pleasure. Nanginginig na yung vocal cords ko as the air was expelled out of my lungs. I gasped for breath sa kada banat nya sa akin causing me to squeal, exhale and fall limp.

“Tangina ang sikip mo nung unang kantot ko sayo… pero kayang kaya mo na titi ko ngayon…” Hirit pa ni Dan habang binabayo nya yung pussy ko ng matindi

“I wanna go back sa pinas na maluwag na puke ko…. Stretch me pa… Pucha, show me what I fucking deserve…” Wala ng kaartehan kong sinabi sa kanya.

He then made me sorry for what I said as he pulled my jeans out sabay grabbed me from behind and positioned me ng nakatuwad facing the bed. Our feet on the floor while both of my hands were planted sa bedsheets when he pushed my whole upper body down while keeping my butt high. With his hand on the back of my neck holding me down, pumwesto sya sa likod ko habang nakasampa yung left feet nya sa kama, probing me until he took my hips and used them to pull me back into him as he hammered me ng matindi.

“Ohhh Putang ina… Shit!…” that was me cursing as I started screaming for sarap. He started fucking me like he’s demonstrating how real men should fuck their women. Dan didn’t care if nahihirapan or nasasarapan ako. Pure libog lang. He’s using my body, my pussy to stroke his cock para labasan. He’s fucking me like he’s showing me what my only purpose is to him… Parausan ng libog nya.

Dan was on a mission to show what a snobby maarte girl like me deserves in contrast to other men who believe that I should be babied or treated like a princess. These cunts put me in high regard and think I warrant romantic gestures, flowers and dates to impress me. Dan on the other hand saw nothing fancy about me and viewed me as just a girl that deserves to be pinned down habang nakatuwad at kinakantot para pagparausan.

He kept on holding my head down sa bed while naka angat pa din yung buong hips ko patuwad na parang yung pussy ko lang yung kailangan nya. He didn’t care about anything else other than his own sarap. In the midst of vicious pounding, the thought of Jeff cluelessly waiting habang ginagawa akong parausan suddenly dawns on me and my orgasm suddenly explodes out of nowhere…

He relentlessly fucked me pa rin for a few more minutes in which I thought he wanted to cum inside my pussy. There’s no way I’ll be able to stop him at that peak of libog. To my surprise, he stopped thrusting after shouting na lalabasan na daw sya. He couldn’t contain himself and began furiously jacking off his cock, willing to waste and withdraw all of his cum sa butt cheeks ko… That’s when I stepped in.

My legs were quivering when I kneeled in front of him and started sucking his cock na parang automatic na sya sa akin. I heard him shout “Hayan na ako… tangina…” so I started jacking him off ng mabilis while looking at him with my lips locked tight sa head ng titi nya.

Without further warning, Dan exploded violently sa loob ng bibig ko. Nag snap ng konti ng head ko as I felt his cum hit my tonsils agad. I remained composed habang nakatitig pa rin sa kanya as I milk his cock inside my mouth. I don’t know the protocol when swallowing cum so I just let him fill my mouth lang until there’s no more left.

“Ngayon mo sabihing gusto mo si Jeff…” he said while staring at me with his yabang face.

Dan has every right to mock me at that point. Sanay na ako sa kanya. I’ve been feeding his huge ego ever since I met him so there’s no point na mag arte-arte pa. I have broken so many of my life rules, disregard my principles and lost all my self-respect that I don’t have any shame anymore.

“Seryoso ako… Sabihin mo na gusto mo si Jeff… kanina paulit ulit mong sinasabi eh…” inulit pa nya

Feeling a rush pass through me at the idea of what he wanted me to say while having a cock and mouthful of cum invading my mouth, I gurgled those words through those tamod sa bibig ko but all that came out was a frantic gurgling sound.

“Ha? Ano? Wala akong naintindihan…” he continued to mock me habang tinatawanan ako.

For a moment I let him enjoy the sight he had in front of him. Nakasubo pa rin ako sa head ng titi nya when I looked up to him under my glasses as I began to swallow his tamod all the way down through my throat. I gulped as loud as I possibly can, letting him know that his cum is now cruising along the inner passageways of my body, before finally letting go of his cock.

“I still like Jeff… there! happy?…“ I said softly while smiling and feeling bangag.

I motioned for Dan to pass me his take away coffee to cover the taste of his tamod sa bibig ko. He grabbed it from the desk while also taking my phone na nasa bed. Dan gave me the cup and just before I was about to take a sip when Dan aimed the camera of my phone right in front of me like he’s about to take a picture.

“Picturan kita J… remembrance mo hehe…“ sabi nya.

Naka float pa rin yung utak ko so the thought of taking a harmless photo didn’t seem to bother me. I took back my phone instead and aimed it right at me. I forced myself to smile under my lifeless fucked up face and took a couple of selfie shots as my souvenir.

“Post mo sa FB mo… pakita mo sa lahat kung anong itsura mo pagkatapos mong magpakantot at lumunok ng tamod hehe…” sabi pa nya habang nagbibihis.

I felt my pussy blazed to that idea. My fingers were trembling to prep the photo and typing in some clever caption before posting it for everyone to see.

“Sige alis na ako… magkikita pa ulit tayo hehe… enjoy kayo ni Jeff…” his parting words before leaving.

I got up and started to compose myself na din kahit lutang pa rin ang utak ko. My hips are aching sa lakas ng pagkantot sa akin ni Dan. I was putting my jeans back on when I heard a notification message from Jeff “Huy okay ka lang? Balik ka na… tama na selfie hehe…”

I got all my luggage ready and then went to the dining hall to meet him again. I faced him as nothing happened and told him my alibis which he believed naman. I can honestly taste my breath (not a typo!) smelling like tamod and yet he didn’t notice shit. Lasang lasa ko pa din si Dan habang kausap ko sya and I felt both guilt and a twang of libog flush through me.

Tuloy tuloy lang sya sa kwento as I smiled at him not letting him know I wasn’t listening. My mind was somewhere else as I’m trying to make sense of what just happened. Pero how can I rationalize letting Dan fuck me and swallowing for the first time – and it all happened right in the middle of our date. As Jeff tells more about him, napahawak ako sa tummy ko. Looks like I’m gonna spend my whole morning with Jeff knowing that I’m carrying Dan’s tamod across my belly.

Jeff was visibly happy spending time with me. He went on treating me like a princess (of course) all throughout like any other guy would do on a first date. I couldn’t help but shake my head in disbelief kapag nahahalata ko syang naiilang kapag dumidikit yung elbows namin. As if touching each other’s skin would make me feel uneasy and uncomfortable. Sarap bigyan ng roll-eyes. I was like, hello? OA ka! My mouth still smells like tamod and I couldn’t even walk properly because of the fucking I just received earlier. Wag ka ngang pa-gentleman dyan..

Jeff and I discussed my complicated situation with Christian and we both agreed to keep everything between us for the time being. We promised to stay in touch kahit na magkalayo kami. After our lunch, I went back to the hotel to get my luggage and met up with Christian para ihatid ako sa airport.

Checking in was a breeze. As we headed towards the immigration gate, Christian asked me if I have thought about us getting back together. I thanked him first for everything he has done for my entire stay there in SG. I admitted that I was open for a second chance but that was prior to finding out that he has a girlfriend na pala. I told him na a lot has changed (true!) during the last 2 years being apart (false! 1 week lang) and the timing ain’t right (true!).

“Stay single pa muna!… It would crush me if I saw you with another guy….” Seryosong hirit pa nya just before we parted ways.

“You already saw me, dear… you’re just stupid to realize it was me…” I said to myself smiling as I walked away heading to my flight back to Manila.

-The End-